Going back to the place I dislike

Assalamualaikum & good evening everyone!

I'm at home now, but Imma go back to shah alam in a bit. Hm :( I hate the fact that weekend seems very very short these days. Just where did the time go???!!! And to make it worse, I might not come home for another three weeks, bcs next week I have a program called Kemahiran Insaniah on Saturday, so it's just a waste of time and money to come home anyway. Next two weeks, my mum is going to Janda Baik, Pahang for her company's team building. So two weekends in shah alam it is. Honestly, since degree started, I've never spent a weekend there. I will come home every Friday hahaha. Clingy & overly-attached daughter? Yes I am.

I am thinking of staying home starting next semester, bcs 1. I don't wanna stay there (obviously) and 2. the journey between home and shah alam only takes 30-40 mins which is not that far, no? There's this friend of mine who wants to drive back and forth everyday, so I'm thinking of car pooling. It's just a plan, and it's not confirmed yet. I have to really pujuk my mum so she'll let me travel back and forth with a car. Amiiiin. Hehe

I'm gonna go get ready and pack my things now. Till then, xx

After so long

Assalamualaikum & salam maal hijrah, everyone!

I haven't been updating anything for so long, nearly a month if I'm not mistaken. I miss blogging more than I thought I would though, huhu..

Anyways, I'm at home for the second time this week. I was home for deepavali break on Tuesday & went back to shah alam on Thursday bcs I had a test that evening. And yesterday, I took the train home and here I am, lying on my bed as I'm typing this entry. It always feels good to be home, no? You can do whatever you want, sleep as long as you can & eat good food heheh.

I have been a bit busy lately, with clasess and stuffs. I had a test for law 435 (law of torts) on Thursday, which was 2 days back. It was ok, only one subtopic was asked luckily �� and next two weeks, I have another test for Malaysian legal system & a presentation for my Islamic class. Another week of business I suppose, but what to do? This is what I chose in the first place.

The reason why I don't blog much since degree started is bcs I can't get ahold of the WiFi. Wallahi I can't even connect the WiFi in my room. The coverage is so slow & sometimes it can't be found at all. My laptop has to use the hotspot from my phone to get access to the internet. Sad amy is sad... �� so I can't really socialize on my laptop anymore. Only doing it when I'm at home hehe.. God bless WiFi rumah ����

I guess this is all for my quick update, I just wanted to write this entry after so long of not being here. In sha Allah, if there's time, I'll blog more in the future.

Till then, good night! ��

Thursday post

Assalamualaikum & good morning everyone!

I'm in my room right now, bcs I don't have any classes today. I'm bored and I don't know what to do, I'm just done with my scholarship application just now. If Allah wills, I'll be accepted to get the scholarship. Anyways, I am looking forward to go home tomorrow right after my classes end at 12.30 p.m. 

Yesterday, mama asked me if I wanted to go home after class since I had only one class at 10.30 a.m. I took the longest time to think and to make the decision whether or not to go home. But after much consideration, I decided to stay bcs 1) I wanted to go to the book bazaar at law faculty yesterday, 2) I had a co-curricular activity this evening and 3) I have a program organised by the college tonight at 08.00 p.m. So there you go, the reasons why I chose to stay at the college. Oh one more reason is bcs my friend asked me to stay so we can hang out and eat together lol. 

I reaaaaally wanna go home tomorrow, regardless of anything that's going to happen. Haha rebellious betul ni. But I need someone to take me out right now bcs I'm bored being alone in my room. H e l p  :(

Of my unstable emotions

Assalamualaikum everyone!

I'm in my room, sitting on my bed as I'm typing this. I had only one class at 1030 a.m this morning bcs the other two are tutorial classes & they won't be held until next month if I'm not mistaken. So here I am in my room, all alone. Two of my roommates are having classes, and the other one is washing her laundry in the bathroom.

Lately I've been feeling so low and sad, and I don't even have the answer to why this is happening to me. I guess it's bcs of the changes that I am having here. Everything is so.. DIFFERENT. I know & I admit, changes are good. Sometimes being different is better. But for me, I hate changes. Especially when I have to be independent and being apart from my friends. I feel sad. I cannot handle this.

Ever since I got here, I can count on one hand the nights that I spend in my room. Most of the nights, I'll be in Kajang & be with my family. Being the manja & clingy me, I would cry if I feel alone and if I miss my family. In my head, there's my lecturer's words when we were in kuantan, "kt shah alam nnti lg tough. Kalau you rase kuantan ni susah, kt sana lg susah. You kena rebut naik bas, penat jalan. Kena jd kuat baru boleh survive kt sana."

Now I know what she meant. She was here for 4 years, doing her degree and master both in Uitm shah alam. She said she was struggling her study years to survive here. Now, I somehow feel what she felt. Although it has just been 2 weeks since I got here. Kalau nk survive, kena jadi kuat. You have to be very very strong in order to compete and be among people. Otherwise, you'll be left out. You'll be left alone. I personally think that I'm not strong. Not strong enough to face this. Idk when I can start to accept and embrace everything, but I know that the "when" is not now.

Till then, pray for me xx

Occupied

Assalamualaikum again!

As I'm already in Uni again now, I am somehow occupied to do things such as socializing on the net and going out. For example, if I have classes at the faculty, I would have to leave my room at least half an hour before to wait for the bus or to walk. But most of the time this week, I walked to class. Simply bcs waiting for the bus to arrive in front of our college is already tiring and a waste of time. So walking it is.

In Kuantan, if there's a gap of half an hour, it's enough to allow me to go back to my room to rest or to change or to eat something light. But now in Shah Alam, even a two hours gap won't work bcs my room is so far away it's approximately 1km from the faculty. Just imagine. That's one of the things that makes me miss Kuantan so badly. Please ya Allah, just let me go back there and enjoy my time being in that place. 

So sad I just wanna bury myself alive. 

Anyways, I wanted to do a book review of If I Stay since last week, but never had the time to do so. So in sha Allah, if I ever have the time to do it next week, I will. I'm starting to lose the memory of what the book is all about hehe. But don't worry, If I have the time, I'll do it. If Allah wills.

I've started my class since Wednesday, which was Law 435 (Law of Torts) at 10.30 a.m. It was fine, just an introduction though. The lecturer for that subject is so funny and cute. But I'm somehow scared and nervous to start studying again. All is well, I hope. On Friday, I had two classes. Ctu 551 (Islamic Studies) at 08.30 a.m, and Law 437 (Malaysian Legal System) at 10.30 a.m. Both were fine, and both subjects are taught by guy lecturers. The real process of teaching and learning will start on the second week, which is next week. Pray for me, ok?

Till then, xx