May & Rejab

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

It's a coincidence that today, 1st May 2014 falls also on the 1st Rejab 1435. So it's exactly two months before Ramadan. I'm excited for this year's Ramadan as last year I didn't get to fast at home. This year, In Sha Allah I'll be fasting a month full at home. It's crazy how fast time flies like wait a minute I feel like it was just yesterday we got into 2014. Wow. Just wow. 

So kt sini I nak share sikit lah. I'm not trying to be proud of what I know and underestimate those yang salah bg info whatsoever but tak salah klau kita ada ilmu kita share kan kan? Yesterday, there were many people on twitter tweeted that 1st Rejab is the day that when our buku amalan is brought up to be evaluated and is replaced with a new one. Not trying to be rude ok, don't judge me but our buku amalan is changed only once a year which is on 15th Sya'ban or we call it as Nisfu Sya'ban. Idk why people always mistaken things when it comes to bulan dalam Islam. Ada juga yang kata 1st Muharram is when our buku amalan is changed. Aiyaiyai.. So everyone was like minta maaf to others for their wrongdoings because their buku amalan was going to be brought up. I mean it's not wrong for you to seek apologies from others. It's really good though. And it's also good when you want to share something beneficial through twitter, facebook etc but get your facts clear first ok ok? Nnti ada yang menimbulkan fitnah lg susah. Biasalah manusia skrg ni salah sikit je nak bash lebih lebih. Hehehe. 

Anyways, May is already here. It's been a month since I finished my foundation year. Gosh how fast!! I feel like it wast just yesterday I finished my finals and packed my things up and went home ((semua nak feel like yesterday hehehe no hate)). But yeah, knp cepat sangat masa berlalu Ya Allah? I feel like I'm missing on a lot of things. And it's scary. But you know what's scarier? My result is gonna be out in 8 days. Haaa now that's even scarier. For me. Nervous and scared and overwhelmed at all once. May Allah eas everything and may everything that I've worked on will pay off. 

In Sha Allah. 

Till then, may Allah bless and have a great day! Oh yes, happy fasting to those who are fasting today xx

Book tour

Assalamualaikum!

So today I'll be doing a book tour for the books that I've bought since early this year. The books are not a lot, but I'm just going to share them with you hehe. Here we go : 

So basically I've bought 7 new novels this year. I know it's just a few, since I didn't get the chance to go to BBW book sales in March. Otherwise, it will be a heck lot of new books I bet. So far buku yg telah dibaca ada satu je, which is on the right side with the title Friends Forever by Danielle Steel. I bought it at Popular in ECM in January if I'm not mistaken. This book is about 5 friends, named Gaby, Billy, Izzie, Andy and Sean. They met in kindergarten and developed their friendship ever since. They became closer during elementary school and up to secondary school. After they finished school, they have decided to follow their dreams but that doesn't make their friendship to tear apart. Regardless of the differences in states and countries they live, they remained best friends. Unfortunately, things started to fall apart and some of them can't seem to handle it really well. Something pop up and they started to lose their best friends one by one. This book is one good story. It has lessons and important message especially to the teenagers. 

The book I am currently reading is the second from right,with the title Cocktails for Three by Sophie Kinsella writing as Madeleine Wickham. I bought this book in Popular as well. Popular is having a promotion where only the selected books are placed on different shelves and sold with cut down prices. So I only bought this book for MYR10 when the actual price is about MYR30 something. This book is about three friends named Maggie, Roxanne and Candice who will meet for a cocktail and to catch up with their lives once a month. Even though they don't meet everyday, their friendship remains ever strong. I am just starting with this book, so give me some time to finish with this one ok? 

The other books are New York Valentine by Carmen Reid and The Ballroom on Magnolia Street by Sharon Owens. I bought those two books together with Cocktails for Three, at Popular. The others are Wedding Night by Sophie Kinsella, Message in a Bottle by Nicholas Sparks and Maybe One Day by Melissa Kantor. The reason why I bought Message in A Bottle because my lecturer in Kuantan loves Nicholas Sparks so so much and she would tell us about his books in class. So she recommended that we try to read this novel as it was the first novel of NS that she ever read. When I looked at this novel at MPH, I quickly thought of her. So I grabbed it without second thoughts. At first, Tya wanted to buy John Green's The fault in Our Star but she said that she won't have time to read novels as her schedule is rather busy. So she will buy the novel later when she's ready. 

Anyways, I wanted to complete the I Heart series. I'm left with I Heart Christmas and I Heart London. Only those two if I'm not mistaken. But I shall not be greedy in buying novels. Imma finish reading those novels first, then I can add my collections. That's all for my book tour. 

Till then, xx

Being alone at home

Assalamualaikum! 

I'm all alone at home now, because Tya is at Aleen's house and Dyna is at school. They will only be back in the evening. I'm so bored and I have nothing good to do. I just had lunch and I'm sitting in the living room all by myself. That's sad..

I wanted to watch Fozen online, but the websites are barred. You know what I mean? When I opened the website, it says "laman sesawang ini tidak dapat diakses di Malayia kerana kandungannya melanggar undang-undang negara." Come on it's just an online movie website. Aiyaiyai.. Now I don't even know what to do. I might just go back to sleep then. Hahah astaghfirullah hal'azim..

Anyways, the book fest in PWTC will end this Sunday if I'm not mistaken. So Hana asked me and Kina to teman her because she wants to buy new novels. In Sha Allah we'll go there on Friday. I want to buy novels too, but the ones I bought at MPH last 2 weeks pun tak sentuh lg. In fact, the ones I bought in January pun tak hbis baca lg. So I think it's not a good idea for me to buy more novels and end up being a book hoarder. Hahaha. Maybe I'll just teman her to buy novels. Sobs :(

Haaa one more thing, I've been ranting on twitter about how much I wanna go to the Ilmfest 2014, it is the festival of knowledge which will be held at PICC. Basically, it is about Islam punya ajaran lah. But it's more than just that. It is a two-days event, which is on 17th & 18th May. Allah knows how much I wanna go to that event. I mean who would want to miss such a great event kan? Since I was in Kuantan, I've been eyeing on that kind of events. Knowledge based events particularly. But apakan daya, saya jauh di perantauan, plus events mcm tu semua buat dkt Klang Valley. And now I'm in Kajang, I don't wanna miss the opportunity to go. Unfortunately, the ticket is too pricey. MYR200 for early birds and MYR250 for the late comers. Klau Allah izinkan & Allah bg rezeki, saya akan pergi juga. Saya percaya. Eceh.Wallahu'alam..

PS : Imma do a book tour session on the books that I bought this year. And the review as well.

Of missing my best friends

Assalamualaikum! 

It's been exactly 3 weeks since I got home from Kuantan and it's been 3 weeks I haven't seen my friends. I only got to see Kina twice within this 3 weeks time. So me and my friends have a group in Whatsapp and we've been contacting each other ever since foundation ended. 

Few days ago Najwa texted me "amyy rindu awak" "sihat?" and I was touched knowing that she remembered me. We talked about random things for awhile and she invited me to come to her place in K. Terengganu. She is my exhousemate and my classmate. We went to classes together everyday ok. Everyday. So Najwa, if you're reading this, please know that I miss you too. I miss all the good times that we had in class throughout the two semesters. 

The other day, Su sent plentiful voice notes on Whatsapp group singing the chorus of All of Me. It almost brought me to tears listening to her voice because I miss her so bad. That night, we talked about our memories in Kuantan especially in my room ahaha. We did almost everything in my room together (sleeping, gossiping, studying & eating). Out of everything in Kuantan, I miss my room the most. Yup. A lot of memories were created in that room, you know? A heck lot. So since Su and Aina are living far away in K. Terengganu and Dungun respectively, they want to come here for the Book Festival early next month and they're gonna spend the nights at my place. I can't wait to have them here! We did plan to go to Terengganu (me, Kina and Hana) to meet Su and Aina there. In Sha Allah, kalau takde aral. 

Jsyk, I have my set of friends in Kajang and it's called Lalilu. My babies are Anis, Erin, Shera, Iman and Hudda. I miss them so so much since we haven't seen each other for almost 5 months. (Anis is the exception lols). I want to see them so bad but I know it's difficult since we are all studying in different Universities except for me and Anis. In Sha Allah, we're gonna meet soon! Now that I'm having a hard time, I really need my best friends around me. I miss having them around.

In the state of limbo

What would you do when someone whom you love so much is in such deep and low situation in their life?

Would you leave them alone and let them figure things out on their own? 

Or would you help them get back to their life and be strong again?

What if they've hurt you before? 

Would you still consider to help them?

What if after they get better and they start to act they way they acted before?

What if they hurt you again?

Are you strong enough to have your heart broken again? 

Yes. I am in such situation. I'm in the state of limbo and I don't even know what I should do. I've been thinking about it the whole night, I can't sleep thinking about the solution to my situation. If only I have the power to heal, to mend, and to repair human hearts, I would've done that long time ago. Just like everyone else, I can't bear to see the person I love being sad and down and unmotivated the whole time. I don't know what I should do. I consulted a friend of mine about this, and she said I should be there for that person. BUT at the same time, I need to have control over my own self so that I won't be broken hearted again. I can't afford to have another heartbreak. No. Not again. I had enough. If you were in my shoe, what would you do? 

After thinking about this, I feel like Allah wants to test me again. He puts me in this kind of situation to test me. 5 months have passed, and it's all coming back to me now. Once again, it hits me. Allah wants to see how strong my faith is towards Him. He wants to see whether or not I would seek for His help this time. Ya Allah, help me. Strengthen me. Guide me. I'm in need of Your guidance and support. 

PS : I need my best friends too. 

Remember this Monday

Assalamualaikum everyone!

The title doesn't even mean anything. It's just a script that I took from KUWTK, heheh.. It's a new week all over again, hence the third week of me coming back home from Kuantan. Wow! It doesn't really feel like it though. Three weeks without going to classes, without seeing my friends, without having to eat outside at the stalls beside our campus and the list goes on and on. Time just flies so fast, doesn't it? Hmm..

So I had dinner tonight with nasi putih, chicken soup and half of fried ikan kembung. That's it! It's more than enough for me because mama's chicken soup is my favourite! I choose to eat dinner in a bowl instead of a plate because of the soup and also because I'm on diet. Soup is good for diet, they say. It's delicious heheh I love chicken soup. 

I really want to blog so bad but sadly I don't really have anything to blog because I don't go anywhere and there's not much to talk about. Unlike in Kuantan, I had many things to do like going to classes, going out with my housemates etc. Hm I miss Kuantan so badly though :( When will I get the chance to go back? God only knows.. Talking about Kuantan, I've been thinking about my final exam's result that will be out on 9th May which is approximately 3 weeks more. It's nerve-wrecking when I think about it though, because I've been praying night and day so that Allah will give me the best. I really hope that I'll do well in the exam as it will determine my future for degree. You know how scared I am about it? Oh no you don't. 

Till then, xx

Because I'm happy

Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof

Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth

Clap along if you know what happiness is to you

Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

Random update

Assalamualaikum everyone!

I've been missing blogger so much and I've been wanting to blog but I just couldn't bring myself to turning on my computer and signing in into blogger. I'm sorry for the crap though, it's just me being so excited to write. Kehkeh..

It's been two weeks since I got home form Kuantan after my foundation ended on 3rd April, aaaaand I feel so bored staying at home. My boredom has gone up to all time high now because I'd be doing the same routines and chores every single day. I can't imagine myself being a housewife though. Hm so within these two weeks time, I just stayed at home doing nothing but watching the telly and doing some house chores. It's bores me to not get out of the house and not being productive. I mean doing house chores is also productive, but if you keep doing the same thing everyday, you would feel bored too, no? You get what I mean? Heh wtv. 

Yesterday, my sisters and I went to Midvalley to have Dyna's iPod repaired and jalan jalan. We went there by train, waited for mama at Mid since she finished work at 5 something. Then we headed straight to Machines. Unfortunately, the guy who works there asked us to go to the service centre which is at the Northpoint and the service centre has closed since it was already past 6 p.m. So we decided to have some drinks before we headed home. Today, we went to Mid Valley again because the iPod's warranty is only up til today so peluang yang ada jangan dilepaskan hehe. We left home at noon, and reached Mid at about 3 something. Then, we walked straight to the Machine's service centre and sent Dyna's iPod for repair. After that, we had a walk around the mall, because we were looking for a place for drinks. Had some drinks at Food Junction, bought some pastries at La Boheme and went home. It was a very short girls day out, but I kinda miss going out with my family. Both my parents are busy now, so we just stay at home on weekends. It has been like that for almost 2 months now. But nahh, it's ok. We still survive. Ehehe

Hungry soul

Assalamualaikum!

I came across a post on instagram a few days ago, nearly a week ago I guess, and it suddenly hit me hard. It made me think that I'm very small and low. Something that I feel very ashamed of myself. Not sure if I'm the only one who feels that way, but I believe that post is just a reminder to us. 

I took a screenshot of it because I feel it's worth sharing. "If we could take selfies of our soul, would we find it to be attractive to upload and show it to the world?" Masha Allah.. I don't know why but the words make me reflect it to my deeds. More often that not, most of us love to take selfies and put it on public for others to see. But if we are given the chance to post the selfies of our souls and upload them, would we even do it? Most of us would be ashamed of how empty and rotten our souls are. We are proud to show our faces, just because we feel that we are beautiful and flawless, hence we show it to other people. But when it comes to our souls, we become embarrassed and insecure to show them. It makes me think of how screwed up this world has become. People are prouder to show the weakness than the goodness. So let's take this chance to ponder on how to feed our souls and to fill the emptiness. More zikr and remembrance towards Allah can increase our faith. Do more ibadah and streghten our relationship with Allah as well as human beings, to feed these hungry souls of ours. In Sha Allah, we would not be ashamed to show our souls to people. 

To whom it may concern

To a babe of mine, 

I just want you to know that things don't always go our way. Things don't always work they way we hope they would. Whatever happens, have faith. I know that you've gone through a lot of things, you have so much in your plate, but remember Allah won't give you something that He knows you can't handle. You're such a strong young lady and I hope you know that. You would fight for the things that you want. You are very determined. But of course, sometimes things are not meant to be ours. If it is meant to be yours, it will In Sha Allah. Stop wishing things to work out, I mean stop trying too hard that I'm afraid you would get hurt again and again. I hate to see you getting hurt babe. I just want you to remember that Allah is always with us. Pray, Allah always listens. When you've tried so hard and done the best you could, the best next thing to do is to stop. Let Allah do His magic. He knows what's best for us. Everything needs time, no? Every single thing in this world needs its own time and I'm sure you know that. I believe your time will come soon, so you just have to be patient. If you need anything, you know where to find us. We are always here for you. We've always been a support system towards each other right? Even if we can't help, at least we can listen to whatever that you need to tell us. We are all ears to listen. I love you and always will, remember that. You are just like a sister to me. Though we are not biologically related, I still care and love you just as much. 

To, 

whom it may concern

From, 

your best friend whom you have known ever since standard five

Diet routine

Assalamualaikum everyone!

I've been away from blogger for quite some time I guess. It's just me being a bit busy with house chores (eceh) and stuffs. I'm at home now, not sure what to do, waiting for my degree intake in September. Ambik kau lama betul cuti! Baru seminggu pun dah bosan mcm apa je ni. I need money and I wanna go out with my friends. H e l p!

Anyways, I wanna tell you guys about my diet routine, I'm on my third day of diet fyi, and I feel skinny. Haha no I'm kidding! The first day (Wednesday), I didn't take any food at all, except for a piece of bread at 6.30 p.m and that's it! Mama was mad because I didn't eat anything and I have gastritis, so she is worried I might vomit or something. I get it though.. Yesterday, the same routine went on, but I did take rice during dinner because mama was babbling like crazaaayh asking me to eat. So ok I gave up. Yelah ckp mak kena dngar kan klau tak kang lain pulak jadi. Ehehe mother knows best! So during the whole time that I didn't eat anything, I just took plain water and lemon juice, added with honey and some cayenne pepper. I know it sounds weird, but the taste is good. I mean it's not that bad.... 

After my diet of not eating anything is ruined, I came up with a new diet routine which I, myself created, for my own ease. I still take rice, because otherwise mama will nag at me, but in lesser quantity. I avoid as much as I can oily food, sugar, and salt. They can be consumed, but very little. Haaa. Breads can also be consumed, but rarely. I can eat egg, fish, chicken and meat a lot because they only contain protein. And lastly Imma continue working out everyday like I used to. My goal is to lose some weight, not to be too skinny. In Sha Allah, I'm getting towards my goal soon. 

Oh yes, one more thing, I came to realise that starving myself is not good. So girls, don't ever starve yourself just to be skinny, because your body needs nutrients. They need some food to function systematically. Amboi dah mcm nutritionist. Hahah

Till then, xx

Happily and safely home

Assalamualaikum!

I'm home for good now, after 10 months in Kuantan for my law foundation. Alhamdullilah, everything was going smoothly and I had so many experiences throughout that 10 months. The only thing that makes me sad is leaving my friends. Yesterday was.. Idk. Hari berair mata. I cried every time my housemate left for home. The last goodbye I said was to Su, Alica an Najwa. They sent me off to the car and I cried so hard because Su was hugging me tightly and refused to let me go. Haih.. Ada rezeki kita jumpa lg Su. Lepas tu mama pula buat ayat sedih ish mama niiiiiii. I hope our friendship lasts forever. I really hope.

Anyways, I'm on my 5 months leave before going into my degree. I can do whatever I want during this period kah kah. I'm free from my studies but I do have to revise back on my law subjects for my interview in May IF I'm qualified. In Sha Allah, amiiiiin. The result for my finals will be out on 9th May. I pray night and day that I will pass excellently. Whatever happens, Allah know best :)

Till then, have a nice weekend and may Allah bless xx

Of saying goodbye to my friends

Assalamualaikum!

I might cry typing this post, because the title says it all. As I had mentioned, my exam ended yesterday. After that, Su drove us to LPPKN clinic to get the HPV vaccine for the second dose. We had lunch after that and went home. After Asr prayer, me, Kina, Su, Hana and aina went out to Teluk Chempedak to just lepak and have Chatime. Then we went to Kotak kalam to have our early dinner. Kotak kalam is a cute cafe and it only serves western food. The menu is limited because yeah.. it's western only. Next, we went to Megamall because Aina wanted to buy novels and we wanted to spend as much time as we could with each other. Walked around the mall for a while, then we headed to Kulacakes. Since me and Hana have never been there, so we wanted to try out the cakes. Unfortunately, there were only few flavours of cakes left. Hana wasn't interested with the cakes that were left there, so we went home straight. It was about 9.20 p.m.

That night, after we had a shower and performed Isya' prayer, me and Hana went to Aina's room to chill. Kina was going back and while waiting for her dad, she joined us at Aina's room. At about 2.15 a.m, when I was already falling asleep on Aina's bed, Kina's father came. So we went downstairs, waited for a while then said our goodbye to her. Aina cried so bad and I couldn't bear to see her cry. Meh so sad. Walaupun sama sama duduk kajang, things won't be the same anymore. Won't. Dah tak boleh nak gelak gelak sesama makan sesama tidur sesama kt Kuantan. Dah tak boleh lepak dlm bilik pinjam kipas Hana pastu barimg baring. Kina lah yang selalu layan Amy klau Amy mngade ke apa. Amy dah rindu Kina. Sangat :(

This morning, Aina pula nak balik. She called Hana at about 12.50 mcm tu then we quickly went downstairs. Sedih dia.... Mcm tak boleh nak stop nngis. I can't even count of how many times I've cried today. Aina duduk jauh, kt Dungun. Mesti susah nak jumpa lepas ni. In Sha Allah klau ada rezeki jumpa masa degree. Famir and Najwa were there too, to say goodbye to Aina. Aina, Amy dah rindu Aina dah skarang. Rindu nak dengar Aina gelak gelak and gaduh ngn Kina sbb korang berdua klau jumpa je gaduh. Haih. Sedihnya Ya Allah... kan dah ckp masa type post ni mesti nangis. 

Pkul 3 lebih td, Hana pulak balik. Masa peluk dia, air mata tu laju je nak jatuh. She kept saying "In Sha Allah nnti jumpa. Nnti aku call lah kau, then kita kluar sesama ngn Kina." Lg dia ckp mcm tu, lg laju air mata ni. Ya Allah, ni ke rasa sedih berpisah ngn kawan? Selama ni tak rase, sbb skolah harian je. Hari hari jumpa kt skolah dlm 7 jam je, then balik rumah. Masa sem 1 pun tak rase, sbb tahu mmg akan jumpa balik masa sem 2. Ni dah hbis sem 2, means dah hbis foundation, dah takde dah sem 3. Sedih dia tak tahu nak ckp mcm mana. In between masa ni ke degree nnti, mcm mcm boleh berlaku. Sedih bila fikir. Asyik nangis je hari ni. Take care Hana, aku sayang kau. Kau roommate yang sangat rajin and helpful. Kau baik sangat. Harap kita boleh dpt satu rumah lg masa degree nnti. Jangan tnggalkan aku sesorang kt Shah Alam. 

Lpas ni kena say goodbye kt Su pula. A few hours left til I say my last goodbye to UiTM Kuantan. Tak boleh bayangkan cemana nak berpisah ngn Su. Dah kenal dia since kt Jengka lg smpai sekarang. Su baik sangat. Tak berkira klau bab duit ke makanan ke apa. Pastu suka manja manja ngn Amy, in fact dgn semua orang pun. Su lah yang paling jauh, kt KT. Nnti In Sha Allah jumpa, klau panjang umur. Klau semua plan kita Allah izinkan. I really hope I can meet her in UiTM masa degree nnti, walaupun harapan dia sangat tipis. Tu yang sedih sangat bila fikir. Haih. 

Every hello must end with goodbye, no? I hope there will still be many hellos for us, In Sha Allah. Sayang semua sangat! I'm sorry I'm crying, serious tak boleh tahan. 

Final examination updates #2

Monday (24th March): Law 039 - Introduction to social psychology and criminology

#So-so. Some parts were easy and some were a bit tough. We did past semesters questions and we managed to answer.

Wednesday (26th March): Ctu 086 - Fundamentals of Shariah

#The questions were quite easy. For me. I really hope I can get an A. Amin

Thursday (27th March): Law 087 - Introduction to law III

#The killer paper for this sem. But before the exam, we did some past semesters questions and Alhamdulillah we can answer it well.

Sunday (30th March): Law 037 - Introduction to law II

#One word. Easy. The spot questions did come out and I answered the questions calmly and happily. I target an A for this code.

Monday (31st March): Eco 099 - Introduction to Economics

#By far the toughest paper throughout the exam. My friends and I feel like crying looking at the questions. Soalan yg takde dlm silibus pun boleh kluar. Heh. 

Thursday (3rd April): Law 088 -Contemporary global and legal isues
#I only like the part B questions. Anyways, it's an ok paper though. Just ok.

Alhamdullilah, at 12 p.m yesterday, I completed my studies in foundation level. I'm one step ahead to the next phase in my life. Sedih sangat sbb kena tinggalkan kawan kawan semua, tp pertemuan dan perpisahan tu lumrah kan? In Sha Allah klau panjang umur and ada rezeki, boleh jumpa lagi.