March is here!

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It's March all over again, people. How amazing it is that time flies so quickly. So I'm here in Kajang for the weekend, after 4 weeks. Sadly, I'm off to Kuantan again tomorrow night, at 10.30 p.m. 

So since me and my family are moving out next week, we have to start packing our belongings slowly because packing needs a lot of work. Not even kidding. Nasib baik pindah dekat je. We're not going anywhere this weekend, because mama is busy packing up and papa is at work. So we're just gonna chill at home doing our own things. I have assignments to be done, but here I am sitting in the living room watching the new episodes of KUWTK from the latest season. A good weekend, indeed. Ehehe. 

Till then, have a good weekend and may Allah bless xx

I'm going home!

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Today's the day. I'm going home this afternoon. I'm coming home, I'm coming home.. tell the world I'm coming home..

K dah.

I can't wait to be home after 5 weeks. 5 weeks of missing my family is unbearable. I swear. Get me out of here and I'm happy.

Oh yes, I had a HPV vaccination this morning since my campus is having a vaccination campaign for cervical cancer. The nurse injected on my left arm because dia kata klau inject tangan kanan nanti sakit pula nak menulis. Haaa. It hurt a bit, when the nurse wanted to bring the needle out of my arm. At first, the blood refused to stop flowing from my arm, and I had to just let it flow. Ahak. My baju kurung has a few blood stains from my left arm. But now it is better, not as painful as this morning. The second dose is due next month, which we have to take it by ourselves, at any LPPKN clinics. And the last dose is 6 months from now, which is in August. We have to take all 3 doses to get fully protected from cervical cancer. Say yes to no cervical cancer! Haha

Till then, have a blessed Friday! xx

Birthday shout out

Happy 17th birthday my dearest sister, Attelya Zurin! I'm sorry that I can't be there on your birthday to hug you like I always did when the clock strikes 12 a.m. You know how hard it is for me to be away from you, from everyone. I miss you so much and I can't wait for tomorrow to come. And I hope my homecoming tomorrow would be your special birthday present. Ihik.

When I'm in trouble, you're always there. When I got scolded and cried, you would cry too because you can't see me being sad. When I have something to say, you will always listen. You know what I like and what I don't. We understand each other and only us who know the bond that we've made. You're not just my sister, but you're more like my best friend, my twins. Truth be told, I am so proud of who you are today. Keep spreading the positivity in you, sister. I love you very much! 

Word

“That was one of the saddest things about people--their most important thoughts and feelings often went unspoken and barely understood.”



My feelings isn't important. My feelings does not count. My feelings does not matter. 

I'm fine. 

Wednesday talk

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I had my forum this morning, during speaking class (elc subject). It was fine, I guess. My group did the forum for 29 mins. But of course, madam always has something to say or comment for each group. She said that we had the tendency to read out our notes every now and then, and less eye contact. Anyways, the last assessment for this subject would be a debate, which starts next two weeks, before the study week. I'm excited for the debate, because I think it's way easier than a forum. Forum is such a bore. 

I had two classes after zohor prayer today, and both of them are tutorial classes, which are law 037 and Eco 099. I haven't completed the assignment for both subjects and the due date is next two weeks. I've done my part for Eco assignment since it is a group work, but I have yet to start with law 037 assignment. Pray for my sanity people. I have tonnes of work to be submitted before the study week. A few weeks left before the study week starts and a month left before we leave Kuantan. Time flies so fast indeed. 

Till then, xx

Throwback

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I went to East Coast Mall last Sunday with my housemates to watch a movie titled Endless Love. We had breakfast at a mamak restaurant nearby ECM because we were starving. Then we entered ECM and bought the ticket for 12.30 p.m show. Since it was just 11 something a.m, we wandered around the mall for an hour and then got into the cinema. The movie was good, really. It has the elements of love, family and also education. All in all, in the scale of 1-10, I would give 8.5 and I would grade the movie as A. The main cast for the movie is Alex Pettyfer as David and Gabriella Wilde as Jade Butterfield. I suggest you to watch the movie, because it worth your money. Sesiapa yang belum tengok, silalah ke pawagam yang berdekatan. Lol. 

After we've done with the movie, we headed out of ECM to go to Berjaya Megamall to have lunch. Kina wanted McD and since ECM does not have McD, we had to go to Megamall. I only had fried rice during lunch because I didn't feel like eating McD. Then, we walked around the mall to buy some stuffs and went home at about 5.30 p.m. It was a good weekend spent with my housemates, though we planned to get home by noon. Yang plan tu lah yang biasanya tak jadi. 

Once I reached home, Su was alone in the room and she was hungry so she asked me and Hana to teman her for late lunch. At first she wanted to go to Taman Gelora to have hi-tea, but then she chose to have McD. Since she is the one driving, ikut je lah mana dia nak pergi. So we headed to McD at Teluk Chempedak. I only had Chatime in Superior Pure Cocoa flavour. Went back to the campus at 8.40 p.m and chilled in the room with my roommates. 

New place, new life

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As I had mentioned, I'm going back home this week, and I'm excited! I really can't wait to be home after 5 weeks of not seeing my family. My family is the priority, the rest are only the additional stuffs. Lol. I miss my mum too much though. The last time I heard her voice was nearly 2 weeks ago, when we were in kampung, when nenek passed away. The main reason why we don't talk on the phone is that, if I hear her voice, I'll start crying and I miss her even more. Like I can't bear talking to her but she is hundreds of miles away from me. I can't. She really understands the situation so she would neither call me nor ask why I don't call her. 

The reason for me to go home is that I have something urgent to be done this week and next week. That means I'll be going home again next week for the last time before foundation ends. After that, I would have to concentrate on my final exam which starts on 24th March. I'm moving to another place with my family next week. I hope that the new place will open up a new life for me and my family. A new place always provides more rezeki, they say. I really hope it's true. May the blessings from Allah will shower us wherever we are in this world, In Sha Allah. 

PS : Can't wait for Friday to come! 

Final exam

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I already got the timetable for my final examination for this semester. This exam marks the end of our foundation year. At one point, I am sad to end my foundation year and leave this place because I've learned so many things & met wonderful people here. At another point, my heart screams to get out of here ASAP because too much pressure and negativity that I've encountered. Each and every thing that we do, there is always positive and negative side of it, no? I enjoyed staying here, I got new experiences, met new friends and learn to be independent. Even though staying hundreds of miles away from your family is a bummer, but at least you've achieved something valuable that money can't buy. Ececeh. 

So before I leave this place, my housemates and I have planned to have a short getaway together in Gambang right after our exam ends. For law students, our exam ends on 3rd April, so we planned to go on the 4th. Since tesl students haven't got their timetables, the plan is still subject to change. We are going there by bus, so there are so many things we have to consider. If tesl students finish their exam earlier than us, then we stick to the plan. If otherwise, we have to think of other possible time to go. My study week starts on the 17th until 23rd March since my first paper for finals starts on the 24th. So maybe we'll figure out something later. I'm excited, because this is the last time that we can hang out together. After foundation ends, we'll go back home to our own respective states and not sure when to meet again. That's sad. Hopefully we can still be together during degree years. In Sha Allah. 

Physically and emotionally unstable

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I've been sick for the past few days. Last week, I had a mild conjunctivitis and the doctor said it was an early stage of virus attack. At first, my right eye hurt and was constantly watery. So I went to the clinic and got an eyedrop. The next day, I had a severe pain at the back of my right ear. It hurt so bad. And it got swollen the next morning. So Hana forced me to see the doctor, again, to know what's wrong with me. That means I went to the doctor for two consecutive days. Due to those sickness, I've been experiencing a massive headache, especially on the right side of my head, even now. I have no idea what is going on with my antibody, it seems to get weaker and weaker everytime I have a disease. So my body's resistance towards those diseases is very low. 

Too bad. 

These days, I've been having an emotional breakdown due to what I'm going through right now. I already have so much in my plate, and having these kind of defects is really taking a toll on my emotion. I become someone passive and silent. I got to admit that I feel so content when I'm with my housemates because they make me happy, they make me feel alive. But when I'm all alone, I tend to think about it over and over. If you think that I purposely burden myself with all these things, then you're wrong. You're so wrong. Everytime it comes across my head, it struck my heart and it hurts. It hurts every single time. I swear. I am so tired of every single thing. Because everything hurts. I need my mom. I need my sisters. I need to get out of here. I need to get home. Pronto. 

Picture perfect

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I just came back from class 10 mins ago, where we had a test on Social Psychology subject. It was fine, though I lack of ideas on what to write for the essay part. All in all, everything was fine. I have only one class tomorrow, at 10 a.m because the other two classes have been cancelled. Bliss! I can sleep a little longer and I hope I can settle some of my work during that free time. 

As I promised I want to post some pictures from the BeDO activity last Saturday. Before that, I'm sorry for the late update since I've been busy with forum, test etc. So here are some of my favourite pictures and moments that I managed to capture with my housemates. 

I love them to bits!

Since the weather was so hot, our faces turned red and we had and still have a massive sunburn. Screw myself that I forgot to bring a sunblock from Kajang at the time that I need it the most. Anyways, we enjoyed BeDO so much and hoping to have this experience again in the future. In Sha Allah. 

BeDO

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I just came back from Teluk Cempedak beach for Beach Day Out (BeDO) activity this morning. Me and my housemates had a lot of fun throughout the program. Alhamdulillah, everything went well just like what he hoped. We arrived there at 8.30 a.m, had our breakfast and we started off with some aerobik and warm up sessions. After that, we were divided into 3 groups because we had to play 3 games at 3 different stations. Haaa. I played almost all of the games that we had to play. The first round ended at 11 something and we were given a rest after that.

The next round was the same concept, we maintained in our group, and we had to play another 3 games at 3 different stations. That means we had to play 6 games all together throughout the program. After the last game ended, we took a rest under a shady tree and watched thug of war competition. As my team only registered for the telematch, so we did not enter the thug of war competition. After the competition ended, the prize giving ceremony took place. Sadly, we did not manage to get any place. It's ok though. It's not the prize that matters, it's the value of togetherness and our bonding that really matters. 

After everything ended, at about 2.40 p.m, we headed out of the beach to get our lunch and returned to the campus. It was raining in the morning, during the first game, but later, it was so hot. Blazing hot. I think almost everyone has a severe sunburn, and I feel like my face is on fire. Anyways, I enjoyed today's activity so much though it has some defects here and there. All in all, it is a good day. Alhamdulillah. 

I promise to put up some pictures later, in the next post. I am too exhausted that I can barely process words in my brain. I need a power nap right now. Have a nice & may Allah bless! xx

Blissful Friday

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Today's weather is so cold here in Kuantan. It's almost like winter season all over again. It was raining this morning, and it's still drizzling now. I have no morning class today, except for replacement class in the afternoon. So not cool. And the class is in Padang Lalang. Double so not cool. I'm alone in my room because Su and Dayah had left for class at 7 something, and Hana had gone for her class at 9. A whatsapp message woke me up just now, and I chose to blog right away.

As I had mentioned, I went to watch my housemates and classmates played futsal for quarter-final round last night. It was interesting, though I do not like soccer, football, futsal and whatnot. But, well, you know, when you are happy and enjoying moments with your loved ones, there will always be something unpleasant comes along. Always. I have no intention to mention it here in detail, it's enough for me to say that I lost it. I'm over it. So it's really up to you on how to interpret those words. 

I have a program called Beach Day Out or BeDO tomorrow. It's organised by Jawatankuasa Perwakilan Kolej (JPK) UiTM Kuantan. It's going to be held at Pantai Teluk Cempedak since it is the only beach nearby. I'm not excited to join though. Not at all. Because of the unpleasant things that had happened. Hmm. Sabar je lah amy. I have to keep my patience in check, no matter what happens, so that I'll be able to enjoy tomorrow. In Sha Allah. 

Till then, may your Friday goes well & may Allah bless xx

PS : Did I tell you that I'm going home next week? Can't wait!

Losing it

Friday. 1.30 a.m.

I lost it. I am so sorry. I am over it. 

Quote of the day

I guess I'll just let this quote speaks for itself. This just couldn't get any truer. Indeed. 

Random Thursday

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It's been a week since nenek is gone forever, or precisely 8 days. I've been thinking of her most of the time, even though I'm in Kuantan. I miss her presence even though we didn't see each other right before she left. I miss every single thing about her. I wonder how will I be when my mum is gone. Nauzubillah. So today, I had a test for Eco 099 which was supposedly be done last Thursday. Since I wasn't in class last week, so the lecturer had asked me to do it today, during lecture period. The test was so-so. I asked so many questions to the lecturer. Ha ha. 

My campus organised a futsal championship among the students in this campus. So last week was the first round or the preliminary round. Too bad that I wasn't around though. I can't watch them played for the first round. Tonight will be the quarter or semi-final I'm not so sure. But most probably I'm going to watch my classmates and housemates play for the next round. I'm for sure not playing though, I hate football with every ounce inside me. Kah.

Till then, have a great Thursday & may Allah bless! xx

Let my attitude does the talking

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It's sad when you have so much to say but you have to keep it to yourself, no?

It's frustrating when you have the right to speak up, but you have to keep silent, no?

It's tiring when you are the one who always have to consider about other people's feeling but they don't even care about yours, no?

I'm never the one who likes to expose my problems, anger, hatred etcetera on social networks. It's so not me. Those who really know me, know how I am like. Those who understand me, know what kind of a person I am. When I have something I dislike or hate, I keep silent. I don't publicize it to my social network. I don't post it anywhere public that people can easily read it. Why? Because I care about other people's feelings. I know how much it hurts when someone talks bad about you && post it to public. I understand how it feels like to read about yourself on social media. Publicly.

So I really do not understand why would other people choose to lash out their anger and resentment on social media, e.g twitter, facebook, moments etc. Put yourself in their shoes, what would you feel to have read about yourself when someone talks bad about you in public? Be matured. Be rational. Be optimistic. There are so many other ways to solve your problems. To release your anger. To make you feel satisfied. Not by posting bad things about people on your twitter or whatsoever. Truth be told, I've never done this before. I never talk about this thing on my blog, or anywhere. Before you tweet or post anything, think about us. Think about the person that you talk about. What would they feel? And how do you expect we would feel? Don't be so immature. You are big enough to think what's good and what's not. So think. Wisely.

I never hate people. But once I dislike someone or his/her attitude, I will definitely isolate myself from that person. That's not hate, that's protecting myself from negative energy. I know I've always been the one so quiet, I don't get mad easily, I tolerate with people way too much, I care about people more than I do about myself, so I guess all this while I've been giving you a free ticket to do whatever you want towards me huh? Once I care about someone, I care too much. I care because I love. I feel like I am being taken advantage of. Each and every person in this world has limits, mind you. Even the nicest person has limits. Why? Because we are human. We are not angels. We are not perfect. We have limitations. Remember that.

Ya Allah, keep my faith strong towards you. Increase the level of my patience, so I will be able to endure the tests You are giving me. Amin.

Hightlight of the camping trip

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So I went to a camping trip for 3 days and 2 nights from last Friday til yesterday at Kem Sri Gading, UiTM Jengka. We departed  from Kuantan at 3 p.m on Friday and arrived at 5.45 p.m. Had a briefing about the camp site for a while, then we headed into the woods to get to the camping site. Aaaaaand the excitement began. Ha ha ha. The camp site was small, and there is so called a dataran for us to gather for each activity. That is also the place where we eat and pray together. The dataran is not so big, but it can fit all 80 of us. We reached the camp site nearly maghrib prayer and we were asked to settle our self down first and get ready for the prayers. After maghrib & isya' prayers, we had dinner together and then the first activity started immediately since it was already late. The first night ended at 12.30 a.m and we slept at 1 something a.m.

The next day started at 4.30 a.m, where we had qiamullai and solat sunat before subuh prayer. Since it's my time of the month, I got to sleep an hour and a half extra compared to my housemates who had to go for qiam. It was super cold in the morning, we were shivering on our way to the toilet. Oh yes, the toilet is approximately 500 metres from the camp. We had to walk 500 metres away in the dark to get to the toilet. Bayangkan kalau tengah tengah malam nk terkencing terberak ke apa haaa amik kau! It was scary though, but we had no other choice because we needed too pee. Ahak. Ni nk cerita sikit. We only bathed once a day though our schedule was packed and we were all sweating like crazy at the end of the day. Call us unhygienic or whatsoever, but we had to rush for the activities throughout the camping trip and didn't even the time to bathe. Haaa lebih kurang mcm tu lah. Saturday's schedule was so packed but luckily it ended earlier than the previous night. 

Yesterday morning, there was no qiam but only solat sunat before subuh prayer. I woke up at 7.40 a.m and got ready for breakfast. The last activity was to present the question that was given to us the day before. After that, we were asked to write a letter to our friend(s) as a reminder to him/her/them. It's more like an advice and reminder. We had a group photo session after that and packed our things to get back here. It was a great experience since it was my first time spending the night in the woods. Though it just felt like a kampung, but the environment is different. The feel is different. I am grateful that nothing bad had happened to me during the camping trip because yeah, I was in the woods during the time of the month, that just couldn't get any worse I guess. But Alhamdulillah, everything went well. I am fine so far, and so are my housemates. 

Pretty much my saviours in Kuantan && I don't think I would have survived the camp without them. 

Camping let's go!

Assalamualaikum and salam jumaat!

Just when I was done getting ready for my class this morning, my class rep sent a whatsapp message from ustazah saying that this morning's class is cancelled, because ustazah has to go to the clinic. So I have no class today, but later in the afternoon, after Jumaat prayer, I'm going for a camp at Jengka for 3 days and 2 nights. I'm excited for the camp because the last time I went camping was 7 years ago, during UPSR time. It was not really a camp though, it was more like a seminar, because we slept in a room of 4 with an air-conditioner. So later after hana and kina have finished their classes, we are going out to buy some stuffs that we didn't manage to buy the other day. I haven't started packing because I don't even know what to pack though. Biasalah orang takde pengalaman pegi camp memang mcm ni. We want to bring so many things because you know, girls are always fussy about their things, especially when they are going for a trip, camp etc. So since I didn't attend any class yesterday, I had to postpone my test to next Monday. I'm the only one from my class who hasn't taken the test for Eco 099 subject. That means another test awaits me next Monday. 

As everyone knows, today is 14th Feb, and most couples are looking forward to today, because they want to celebrate Valentine's Day. Ingatlah wahai adik adik, kakak kakak, abang abang, VD ni haram hukumnya klau disambut oleh orang Islam. Lain lah klau awak non-muslim, takde sesiapa nk halang awak sambut VD. I remember when I was in a darker place, masa zaman jahiliyyah, I thought that celebrating VD is a way to appreciate your loved one. I mean your partner. Though I never celebrated it, but I thought it is legal for muslims. When I knew VD is haram, I was shocked and thought "nasib baik aku tak pernah sambut". So to all couples yg teringin nk sambut VD tu, hentikanlah keinginan tu. Why do we want to enjoy doing haram things when it is more fun doing things in halal way? Am I right or am I not? Wallahu'alam. 

Gloomy Thursday

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Yesterday, (13022014), my one and only grandmother that is left, passed away at 4.12 a.m. I got the news when my father called me at 6 a.m. He tried to hold back his sobs when he heard me crying. I just thought at that time, I have to go back and see her for the last time. Regardless of the classes and test that I have yesterday. Reached kampung at nearly 1 p.m, when nenek's body has been shrouded, and I didn't get the chance to kiss her. What saddened me more is that I was only a few seconds late. I was crying so badly that almost everyone came to hug and console me. At masjid, I watched them performed Zohor prayer and funeral prayer. After that, we headed straight to the cemetery and my father called me "Adik! cepat tgk nenek" I went to the grave quickly and when they untied the cloth, I saw nenek's white face in front of me. I saw her calm face. I saw her smiling face. At that instant, my tears had flown down like a river on my face. I just couldn't stand the tears. I shed my tears away and kissed her on the cheeks and forehead, and in seconds after that, she is already lying 7 feet underground. I just couldn't believe it. "Ya Allah, ni nenek aku ke?" When I reached kampung at first, I was like "is this really a death event?" There were so many people inside and outside of the house. Just like a wedding ceremony, a reunion. At the grave, during the talqin, I can't stop crying when the Imam mentioned nenek's name as "si mati". I can't accept that she's gone now. Forever. Never going to come back. I'll miss her smile. I'll miss her laugh. I'll miss her smell. I'll miss everything about her. To me, she is a great woman. Mak Wan said to me, "Mak Wan tak penah jumpa orang mcm dia. Mak mertua paling baik." Nenek, may you rest in peace. I pray that angels will always accompany you in your grave so that you'll never be alone. Al-fatihah. 

Of Sunday's event

It was 11.30 p.m when the event ended. The first and third picture were taken outside the room I was debating. They are all my very supportive housemates, they came to support in every round and session of my debate. The second picture was during the prize giving ceremony after the result was announced. Alhamdulillah for the experience, knowledge and ukhwah. 

One after the other

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I am done with my law 088 test yesterday, and Alhamdulillah it went well. Even though I studied at the eleventh hour, but I managed to answer the questions. The test was at 2:15 p.m yesterday, and I only studied at 11 a.m. I was really exhausted from Sunday's event, and I fell asleep from 11 something and woke up for Zohor prayer. Nearly two hours and a half. Went to class at 2:05 p.m, took the test and went home. 

Next test would be this Thursday, which is Eco 099. I have heaps of assignments and presentations await, and need to be settled ASAP. Time flies so fast though, I have only 6 weeks left for my foundation studies. I need to be focus. Tak lama dah, pejam celik pejam celik dah habis asasi. 

*I miss my family so much it hurts :/

Honorable second best

Assalamualaikum everyone!

Yesterday was indeed very very tiring. As I had mentioned, I participated in interclass debate championship, and managed to get through the final round. Although my team didn't win, but we are grateful enough to be given the chance to enter the final round. All debaters were good though, maybe it's just not their luck. We lost against Tesl E whom I can't deny, are good speakers and the rezeki was with them. Early morning yesterday, I went out to have breakfast with my housemates before the event started. At 8, me and my teammates did the registration and entered the meeting hall for the briefing. After that, we were asked to draw lot to know which side we were in, whether government or opposition. Then the motion was revealed. The motion for the preliminary round was "This house opposes omegle.com" and we got to be in the government side. The preliminary round started at 9:30 a.m and ended at 11 a.m.

After the preliminary, we had a break for like 2 hours and a half since the quarter final started at 1:45 p.m. Had lunch with my housemates at Kg. Selamat and bought big apple donuts. I was already exhausted after the first round ended though, because the room I was debating in was super cold. During the quarter final, my team got to be the bye since there were an odd number of teams left. That means we secured the place straight to the semi-finals. In Malay we always say "menang tanpa bertanding". I was happy and scared at the same time, BECAUSE I knew that the motion for the semi-final would be even harder. During the semi-final, we had to be the opposition and the motion was "This House Believes That Professional Clubs Should Only be Owned by Local Authority of the Area They Represent". Alhamdulillah, it was beyond expectation that our team would win because it was a heated debate with the other law group.

Finally, after maghrib prayer, I went downstairs for the final round between my class, Law D and Tesl E. The final motion was "Since the Lecturer cannot teach all subjects, this house would not make it compulsory for the students to study all subjects offered in the course" and we were the opposition. After we got the motion, we were given an hour an a half to prepare to give way for debat final to take place. Both government and opposition team were quarantined in a room, so that we would not be disturbed by anyone. The final round for debate started at 10 p.m and ended at 11.15 p.m. I was super tired yesterday, that I didn't even study for my test at all. Not a bit. After all, it is a great experience and I have learnt a lot from the event. Alhamdulillah. I myself didn't even foresee that we would have made it into the final. Dapat masuk final pun dah bersyukur kan. 


PS : I typed this post yesterday, but I only have the time to post it now. Till then, may Allah bless! xx

Adore You

God knows exactly what He was doing

When He led me to you

The fact that Miley's songs are so sentimental breaks my heart. My feels though

7 days of exhaustion

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I have a very packed schedule this week, because everyday is filled with activities. I had classes from morning til evening on Monday to Thursday, then yesterday morning I had Islamic Studies class, later in the evening I had a test and finally at night the campus organised a program called "Malam Cinta Rasul", an ustaz from Jerantut came by to give a ceramah about solat. After that, at about 9 something, we (me, hana, su, kina, famir & najwa) went to Su's sister's house to watch the final Maharaja Lawak Mega. Semata mata. Su drove to Beserah, her sister's house, which is about 15-20 minutes away from our campus. Because of the show ended at 12:30 a.m, her sister asked us to just spend the night at her house. We slept at about 1 something a.m, and went back to campus at 10:30 a.m this morning. 

At noon, we had a program called "Bersantai Bersama Menteri Pendidikan II" because Dato' Seri Idris Jusoh came to our campus. It was very very hot I tell ya, the weather was blazing hot and we had to wear formal attire some more. Aiyaiyai! The program started at 02:40 p.m and ended at 05:10 p.m. After Asr prayer, my housemates and I went to Bank Islam then headed to Tunas Manja to buy some stuffs. After paying, we headed back to the campus to have dinner. And now I'm relaxing in my room searching some debate motions to prepare myself for tomorrow. I am nervous though, not gonna lie. But In Sha Allah everything will be fine. If Allah wills, we'll get through finals. Tomorrow will be another tiring day because the inter-class debate and debat thingy ends at 11 p.m. Just imagine! And on Monday, I will have a test for law 088. 

I have to start studying now or else I won't have any other time to do it. Yesterday's test was ok, but some questions were confusing though. There were 6 subjective questions and one essay question. I will have another two tests next week. Please pray for my sanity. 

Till then, may Allah bless xx

Random update

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone!

Just finished class at 04:30 p.m just now, and am currently sitting in my room, while waiting for Asr prayer. So tomorrow I'll be having a test for law 087 as I had mentioned countless times in the previous posts. The test will cover all about law of contract, which to me is very confusing and complicated to understand. There will be essay questions, and I do not know how many. I'm scared, of course, like who isn't scared of tests? The ONLY bummer is that I am having the test at 3.00 p.m tomorrow. Like whuuuut? 3 p.m is supposed to be our nap time oh c'mon madam..... but what can we do, we have no other time to do the test though. 

I think I've mentioned that I'm gonna be representing my class for inter-class debate, no? So I have to search for the motions to practice with my teammates as the real motion will only be given to us 15 minutes before the debate starts. That means we'll get to know the motion on that Sunday morning itself. I mean that's quite hard because we need to practice to prepare ourselves for the day. So we need to find the motions by ourselves to practice. Tomorrow night, our campus will have a program called "Malam Cinta Rasul" in conjunction with the month of Rabiulawal. An ustaz from Tv Al-Hijrah will be coming here, but I do not know who. It will be a very tiring day tomorrow since I have Islamic Studies class in the morning at 8-10, then a test at 3-4.30 p.m then at night I'll have to attend that program. 

So I think that is all for now though. Will update soon. Wish me luck for my test tomorrow! xx

Burdens Off!

Assalamualaikum and good afternoon everyone!

I just finished today's classes at 3 p.m just now and currently relaxing in the room. As I mentioned earlier, I will have my persuasive speech on Monday. However, madam decided to do only 13 persons on that day since there are 25 of us in the class. She picked our names at random so everyone has to be prepared. There were two sessions, one was on Monday and the second was this morning. I wasn't called during the first session, so obviously I would be called during the second one. So this morning the class started at 9 a.m, and I was the third person to be called to give the speech. At first I was quite nervous, I mean before stepping into the class. Once I got into the class, my nervousness has eased and I felt a bit relaxed. When my name was called, I went straight to the front and started to give my speech. The duration of my speech was about 8 mins and a half. Madam said I spoke a bit fast but the information is interesting. Oh yes, my persuasive speech topic is "Why everyone should know how to cook". Anyways, I'm glad that everything went well even though I'm down with flu and sore throat and I am relieved that I'm done with the speech.

Our next task after the speech would be a forum and a debate. We will do a forum first, then only the debate. If I'm not mistaken. I am excited about the debate, but not for the forum. Just so you know, forum is so boring and old school. It's like a discussion about a given topic and there are 3 or 4 panels in a forum and they will give opinions about the topic. On the other hand,debate is about arguing something. You don't get to choose whether to support or to oppose, as it is already given to you. The motion (topic) is also given to you right before the debate starts. That's basically how debate works. Next week, on Monday, we will probably be given some infos about the forum and maybe on Wednesday the forum will start. Since we don't have this ELC 092 paper in the final exam, the lecturer has to assign us with this kind of presentations to assess us. After all, this subject is all about speaking in public. 

This Sunday, our campus will have an inter-class debate. Each class, both tesl and law has to send two teams, one for debat and another for debate. That means, each team will go against another class in league. So the first round would be the preliminary, then straight to quarter final, semi final, and lastly final. My two classmates and I will be representing our class for the debate team, but the team for debat is yet to be confirmed. I really hope that our team will manage to get through at least semi final, at least. The event is organised by my club, which is Kelab Debat dan Orator UiTM Kuantan. This event gives an opportunity for the students to unleash their talents in speaking in front of the public, and also to boost their self-confidence to speak. I know so many of us here have the talent, but they are just too shy to show it. I hope by having this event, they could overcome their shyness and show their speaking skills to everyone.

Till then, may Allah bless xx

PS : I had this post pending for more than an hour before posting it on my blog. So good evening everyone!

11:05 p.m

Assalamualaikum everyone!

I'm back in Kuantan a few hours ago. Reached TSK (Terminal Sentral Kuantan) at 7 p.m, then took a cab to the campus. Performed maghrib prayer and had dinner with Hana and Kina and went home after that. So I just got to know that my schedule throughout February will be so packed! Week after week, there will be a college activity. Idk when can I steal the time to study. With assignments, presentations and tests coming in, I can imagine how hectic my days would be. Masha Allah. If this is the price that I have to pay in order to pursue law, I'd accept it. Because I've been dreaming of doing this thing since I was fourteen. I hope my effort and sacrifice are worth it. 

Anyways, tomorrow is my persuasive speech. The final one. The real one. I will update on how good/bad I am in my speech later in my next post. My classmates are freaking out and are so nervous because they are not prepared mentally and physically. Not to say that I'm fully prepared, but I'm trying my best to not be too nervous about it. I try to not memorize my speech as I'm planning to do it extemporaneously. Trust me, it would make your speech looks more natural if you do it that way. So you won't cramp your head with all the words that you've memorized. Memorizing you speech would be very dangerous though, because when you are nervous, you tend to forget you script and you would end up talking craps. It happened to me before, so I know how it feels standing in front of the class, feeling like a fool. That's why I choose not to memorize this time, because I know I would be nervous tomorrow. I have stage fright. 

Wish me luck for tomorrow. Good night! xx

Rise and Shine

Assalamualaikum and good morning!

I got to steal some time to make a quick update. After this, I'm going to pack my things up since I haven't done anything yet. 

     1. My bus to Kuantan will be at 02:30 p.m

    2.  Tomorrow is my persuasive speech and I'm nervous! My classmates are trying to persuade the lecturer to postpone it til Wednesday, because they are so not ready. We are so not ready. 

    3. I brought back my notes for law 087 since I'm going to have a test next week, but I didn't have the time to even touch it. Oh God..

   

   4. I miss my lalilu so so much. Since we only got two days off for the weekend, we didn't have the time to meet up. I have no idea when can I actually see them though. That's pretty sad.

p/s : I'm working on my speech right now, and have to pack my things later. 

Till then, may Allah bless xx 

Short Break

Assalamualaikum everyone!

I'm here in Kajang since yesterday afternoon, but will be going back to Kuantan tomorrow afternoon. How sad :( It's a very very short holiday that UiTM gave us, haih. It's okay though, I have only 2 months left in Kuantan and I'll be back here for good. So after this holiday, I have a test on Friday for law 087 as I mentioned in my previous post the other day. The following week there will be a test for law 088 on Monday, 10th Feb and also Eco 099 on Thursday. That weekend, starting Friday to Sunday, I'm going to a camp at Jengka. It is organised by GIA (Global Islamic Art) club, and I'm one of the members of the club. It is a 3 days & 2 nights camp and it is called "Kem Peribadi Mukmin" or something like that, I'm not so sure. I'm quite excited though, because I've never been to a camp before. Oh yes you can laugh at me all you want because that's what my housemates did when I said that. My plan of going home is that I want to take a few things that are left at home and also the things that I need for them camp since I'm not going to be here until early March. Yup, sebulan sekali je balik. Sedih :/ . After that, I need to concentrate on my finals which starts on 23rd March. I am now 70% done with my foundation, and I'm getting closer to the end.

xx