Towards betterment

Assalamualaikum and good morning!

It's now 11:12 a.m. while I'm typing this post and I just got back from class a few minutes ago. I have another class at 2 p.m afterwards. I'm all alone in the room while my roommates are in class, so I choose to blog rather than sleep.

So what I want to tell here is, the other day, 2 weeks ago if I'm not mistaken, I was with my housemates wandering around the shops outside East Coast Mall after withdrawing our money at Bank Islam. So we entered into a bookstore where actually Najwa and I wanted to find a book about Fikh Puasa Wanita for our group assignment. Later on, I saw a book by Diana Amir entitled Titisan Mahabbah. I do not know why but my heart was asking me to get the book. It was like my instinct has told me it is a good book, and I have to read it. Without further thought, I paid for the book. 

Since I have so many things to do and so many commitments to give, I don't have the time to read it until last night, after I was done with my Psychology tutorial, I grabbed the book from above my locker and started to read it. And Masha Allah, that book has brought me to tears. Tears of amazement, tears of stupefaction and tears of fear were taking over me that I can not handle. We all know how Diana Amir was like before, but she has become someone who is very, very different from the past. "There is no sinner that does not have a future, and there is no saint that does not have a past", they say. Yet, it is very true. She has changed herself 360 degrees and in that book, she told her experiences when she went hiking the Jabal Musa with her mates, she got a note from one "bonda" that she does not know who until now and so many more. I have yet to finish the book, though. But I have felt such an amazement when reading her book. I wonder how it is like to read it until the end. 

Since I was so tired and sleepy last night, I left it aside and only managed to read til page 34. Definitely looking forward to continue tonight, or this evening, after I'm done with classes. Let us all take it as a lesson, and make it as a motivation to change ourselves. Towards betterment. Not everyone can have the experience like Diana Amir, but we definitely can have our own experience by appreciating ourselves and accept what Allah has given us. It would be more meaningful. To feel the change. To accept the difference with ourselves. 

Wallahu'alam. 

Morning Diary

Assalamualaikum and salam subuh everyone!

It's 06:36 a.m when I'm typing this post and I just had my sahur and performed subuh prayer and took my shower. Class is at 8, so I resist my bed to go back to sleep, instead, I opt to blog. Hehehe.. Since tomorrow is public holiday, I'll be going back home for the weekends. Will depart from here at 9 a.m  by bus and I CAN NOT wait. It's been a month since I went home during christmas. Too many things that need to be settled at home, and my mum needs me. Oh yes, she does need me. But one thing that saddens me, it's going to be a very, very short holiday since I only arrive Kajang at noon on Friday, and will be back in Kuantan at noon on Sunday. It's only, what, 48 hours or so?

So.. on Tuesday, that means kelmarin, my classmates and I had a farewell party for one of my law lecturers since she is pursuing her master in UIA, Gombak in February, after CNY. We are very sad and half-hearted to let her go though, but that's just us being selfish. I mean, she has her own dreams too right? She has already taken a double degree, major in law and did chambering for law. In a way, she is very, very inspiring because she has told us her experiences during her degree years and chambering period. She also showed us the pictures when she did a case submission in KL High Court if I'm not mistaken. "Kepada sesiapa yang buat law tu, teruskan. Tabahkan hati, sebab banyak lg cabaran yang awak akan lalui masa degree nanti." She kept saying that sentence to us because she never want us to give up on this course. Though it is very challenging, but it's worth it. I am so going to make her my idol, because she is such a determined and a dedicated person. As one of my classmates had said, she is always 10 minutes earlier to class than we are. She has to wait for us to be in class, and she never said anything nor did she complaint. One more thing, she always remind us to have faith in Allah, and keep close of our relationship with Him. "You jaga hak Allah, Allah jaga hak you" was one of her reminders. I'm so touched and burst into tears during her last speech the other day. We took so many pictures together, and our class representative gave an appreciation speech to her.

Semoga berjaya dalam master, Miss Aidillah. Your knowledge, advises and reminders will definitely be remembered. You will be missed, that's for sure. 

Say something

And I will swallow my pride

You're the one that I love

And I'm saying goodbye

Say something..

Weekend is here

Assalamualaikum and good evening everyone!

I'm just done doing my elc 093 first draft that is to be submitted on Monday, during replacement class. So.. as I mentioned that day that I had to make a comedy presentation in front of the class, and luckily that went well. I was relieved that my classmates laughed at my presentation even though I felt it was so hambar. On Thursday, I had morning classes as usual until 11.15 a.m. After that, all lecturers went to UiTM Jengka for a meeting, so we had no afternoon classes. Later in the evening, me and my 4 housemates went to a nearby bakery. I ordered choc chip cookies cheesecake and vanilla milkshake. And after maghrib, I had dinner with my housemates. Mana tak gemuk, duduk sini makan, makan dan makan je. Yesterday, I had two morning classes until 11.30 a.m, then had lunch with my friends. Took a nap after zohor and woke up at 6 p.m, and had dinner as usual. Yesterday was my housemate/roommate's birthday, so we did a prank on her. We gave her a silent treatment since Thursday night and she was crying because we didn't layan her. At all. Last night, we did an OT (open table) to her ((well, boarding school students know what OT means)), then surprised her with a cake. Haha. Happy Birthday Dayah! We love you though. Apparently, she is the most innocent one among ten of us. She is also the most sensible and the coolest among us, so she didn't suspect the prank. I don't have debate meeting/training today, so I'm just chilling in my room, blogging and tumblr-ing. Will go to pasar malam nearby later In Sha Allah, with my housemates. To buy dinner. 

I have two tests next week, Economics and Islamic Studies. I have the confidence in Eco subject, as it is not so complicated and the question patterns are so straight forward. But Islamic Studies scares me a lil bit. The question is simple but the answer is not like what you expect. The answer is way longer and more detailed than what we could expect. So I really have to concentrate more on this paper I guess.

Till then, may Allah bless xx

Tuesday's Overview

• Alhamdulillah, law 037 test was good. I answered the questions confidently and I hope I can score the paper, amiiin.

• I had an afternoon class just now, and we learnt about grammar mistakes in essays. Although we are already in a University, some of us still do not know how to differentiate tenses and how to use them. 

• I have one big task tomorrow. I have to make some sort of a comedy presentation. In front of the class. Yes I know it's kinda embarrassing. We have to do it in pair and my partner is Najwa. We still haven't decided on what kind of a comedy we want to do.

• My elc term paper draft is due next Monday. Supposedly, it has to be submitted this Thursday, but because of the lecturer is going to be out of town on that day, the due date is postponed til next Monday. Bliss!

• Law 087 test is on 7th Feb, that is after the CNY break. Simply means that I have to bring back home the notes and stuffs during the holidays. 

4.25 p.m

“Whatever comes, let it come. What stays, let it stay. What goes, let it go.”
- unknown



Assalamualaikum and good evening everyone!




When something happens or comes into our life, let it be. Everything that appears in our life doesn't come coincidently. There must be a reason towards everything that is happening. Everything happens for a reason. We often think of the things that could have happen, instead of the things that had happened. Many a time we forget to appreciate the things that Allah has given us, instead we complaint and crave for the things that we do not have. Everything Allah has granted upon us, that's all we deserve. And maybe it's the best for us. Whatever that stays in our life, let it stay. E.g : wealth, health and success. We SHOULD be grateful for our health, because not everyone is lucky enough to be as healthy as we are right now. And when something goes away from us, let it go, for Allah has better plans for us. He would replace the things that we've lost to better ones. So put our best faith in Him, because He is the only One that we can rely on. He is the only Helper, the only Granter. All praise is to Him. Only Him. Wallahu'alam.

New Week, New Start

Assalamualaikum & salam Isnin! (lol)

1.    My class ended at 10.30 a.m this morning and I have no afternoon classes, because my lecturer is not well.

2.    My real persuasive speech is postponed AGAIN from 27th Jan to 3rd Feb. That means I have more time to prepare and do my best.

3.    Ctu 086 (Islamic Studies) test is postponed to next week because there are still some classes that haven't completed the six chapters that will come out in the test.

4.    Law 087 test is also postponed to after CNY because other classes still haven't completed Contract Law. It is a common test, so the lecturer has to wait til all classes have finished.

5.   I have only one test this week, which is law 037 tomorrow at 10 a.m. I h o p e I can do well with this subject.

I feel like a weight is just lifted off from me. I feel so relieved, because most of the crucial things are postponed so I can study more and prepare myself better. In Feb, I would be super busaaaayh with assignments, tests and also my debate club as I have to be the committee for the activities. I really have to concentrate and focus on my studies now, otherwise I'm doomed.

So excuse me while I study for tomorrow's test lols.

Till then, may Allah bless xx

Grateful Thursday

I believe, with every struggle and hardship, there will be ease. Allah is Just, Allah is Just.

I checked my MUET result last night at 12.10 a.m, aaaaaaand......

Alhamdulillah I managed to get band 4. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah thank you for granting me such a great blessing. I know everything that Allah has granted me with, that's the best for me. So I guess this is the best for me. I'm so happy and relieved, but at the same time, I'm sad to see my friends being sad for not obtaining band 4. Even though we can repeat the exam, yet the disappointment is still there. What kind of feelings is that? You feel happy, but sad at the same time. Hm

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, indeed I'm very very thankful for this. I'm one step closer to being a lawyer,

In Sha Allah. 

Horrifying MUET

Well, I'm nervous.






MUET result is coming out in less than 12 hours.






Starting 12 a.m, tonight, the website is open. Ahh I'm scared. I'm nervous.




Ya Allah, ease everything for me. Give me the best. Give me band 4. Amiiiin

1.03 p.m

Assalamualaikum & good afternoon everyone!

I hope all of you are having a good week. Hm as for me, I'm having quite a busy week. With tests and presentation coming on next week, I would have to prepare for them this week. So I finished my class at 10.50 a.m just now, and the next class is at 2.10 p.m afterwards. It's been a while since I blogged I guess, I've been busy with classes and stuffs. Here's are some highlight throughout the week :

On Friday, I finished class at 11, bought my brunch and went home. Took a nap at 1 something p.m til 4 something p.m ((is that called a nap? lol)) then I woke up and asked Hana to accompany me to ECM (East Coast Mall) because I wanted to buy something. So I went to ECM with my roommates, Hana and Dayah at 5.10 p.m. Bought a perfume and lip balm at The Body Shop because I don't have any perfume with me and I've been wanting to buy BS's lip balm since forever. Went home nearly maghrib time and had dinner with my housemates as usual.

On Saturday, I had breakfast with my housemates then we went to Bank Islam because some of us wanted to withdraw money. Then we went to bookstore, shawl & scarfs store to check out stuffs and went home by foot. (Save cost hahah) Chilled in my room til evening and had an early dinner with my housemates. (We have an early dinner almost everyday, mind you).

On Sunday, I woke up at 8. The original plan was to go to the gym with my 2 housemates, BUT it was cancelled because they woke up late, like late late. So I just chilled in my room, having biscuits and hot tea for breakfast. Later in the afternoon, I decided to go to Megamall because I was in NEED of a new pair of shoes, since the old one dah terkoyak dekat tepi. Bila jalan time hujan, the water would enter my shoes from the hole and my socks would be soaking wet. Sedih kan? So we went to Megamall and I bought two pairs of shoes, one is a flat shoe, it is used for classes and the other one is just a sandal, it is to be used whenever I want to go somewhere near like 7E, my friends' house etc. Watched Thai horror movie titled Make Me Shudder. It was actually a horror comedy movies, and we were laughing so hard I swear it wasn't scary at all. We went home after movie by a cab.

I had classes as usual on Monday, so nothing special on that day. But in the evening, we had an early dinner because Hana and Najwa had a night class at 8. At that night, we were planning a birthday celebration for Najwa since yesterday was her birthday. I went to a bakery with my housemates to buy a cake for her, it was tiramisu cake. Since she had a night class, so we had an ample time to discuss the plan. I can't tell the plan here, because she might read my blog bahaha. The plan went well, I guess. We managed to suprise her with the cake, and she cried because she didn't expect the suprise from us. Celebrated her birthday at my old housemates's house that night, and went home at about 1.30 a.m.

Since yesterday was public holiday, we went to ECM again, after zohor, to have KFC and to celebrate her birthday for the second time. I bought a bracelet from Chamelon. Mind you, I am crazy obsessed over bracelets. Then we window shopped for a while and went home at 4 something p.m. Chilled in my room and took a nap at 6 p.m till 8 something p.m. And we had dinner at 9 p.m last night.

Fuhhh.. long story. That was pretty much how my week has gone by. I miss my mum though. I miss my family. Two weeks more and I'll be home for CNY break. Only for the weekend. My class started at 9 this morning, it was supposed to be a three hours class but we had mock persuasive speech, and madam dismissed the class at 10.50 a.m.

Till then, have a nice day and may Allah bless xx

p/s : Katy Perry / Unconditionally on repeat. Its my current fav song!

Brain crack

Assalamualaikum and happy monday!

It's the first monday of the month year, so I hope that everyone's having a great day today. Well, I'm back in Kuantan to continue my second sem which has only 2 months ++ left. Arrived at 6.50 p.m yesterday and headed straight to my hostel. Performed maghrib and had dinner with hana. After that, we unpacked our things and settled down a lil bit. Later, my old housemate invited us to her house because she brought some cheese cake and wanted us to have some. So we went there, talked and laughed way too much with my old housemates and went back at about 12.30 a.m.

So classes are going on as usual today, just that I have one new lecturer for law 088 as well as law 039 because the old lecturer is resting as she is now pregnant. I'm not so sure whether she is just taking an early leave or quitting her job in uitm. I have difficulties in adapting her ((the new lecturer)) way of teaching because she doesn't have that much of an experience in teaching University students, I guess. Well, let's just give her a chance since today's her first day here. I really hope that things will work out well soon enough because tests and exams are coming way sooner than we could ever realise. It's super scary!

I have tons of assignment that have been awaiting. 2 of them are pending, and I have to start working on them this very week. The others are yet to be given by the lecturers, and I'm sure that they'll be given anytime soon. So I have to be prepared mentally and physically. Tests are coming in February, that means I have to slowly start revising.

This is my last sem for my foundation studies so I really want to do well this time. I could not play around, I have to stay focus on my studies or else my pointer could just be even lower than the first sem. Hope Allah will ease everything for me and may everything goes smoothly. In Sha Allah.

Till then, may Allah bless xx

Random Post

Assalamualaikum!

Since I'm going back to Kuantan this afternoon, I though I could write a lil bit of what I did and where I went yesterday. So I went to baby Jebat's aqiqah and cukur jambul at my cousin's house in Ampang. I went there with my family except papa as he had to run some errands in Putrajaya so it was only 5 of us. Pak Long, and Mak Teh were with us too, we met them somewhere then convoyed our way to my cousin's house.

We had lunch and they had kambing salai for the aqiqah, I swear kambing salai is the goddest! I could eat them all, but when I thought of my diet I resisted the lamb and only took 2 pieces haha. The food was good yummy and I stole Jebat from Mak Teh and carried him. He was so cute in shirt and pants. Haven't seen him in only 3 days, but he already looked bigger and different. The next time I see him, he would be what, 5 months young? And I bet he will look very different.

Then we went to Wangsa Maju as usual. My mother's side of the family will gather there every Saturday, just to meet up and share stories about what had happened throughout the week. Sometimes I don't really understand why they have to meet every single week, but then as I grow older I understand how important family is. They are the ones who would be there through everything. They are the ones who have helped my mum when she needed anything. Talked and laughed with my cousins just like what we did everytime we meet, and went home at around 6 p.m

A little angel sent from above, to strengthen the love and tighten the bond in the family.

Muhammad Jebat Rizqi ♥

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Have you ever feel alone even though you are surrounded by so many people?

Have you ever feel so low on some days that you just wanna be alone and don't feel like talking?

Yes. We go through that sometimes. We do feel them. That's because we have feelings.We are just a normal human being, with feelings. It's ok to not be ok. It's ok to feel down sometimes. Because that shows Allah wants you to pray more, to ask more from Him. Allah knows when you're down, you would seek for His help, you would ask for strength. 

Because in life, you will sometime feel happy and sad. There are some days that you feel like you're in cloud nine, that you couldn't be happier. And there are some days that you will feel so low even smiling takes a whole lot of an effort to you. As long as you breathe, you will be tested every now and then in your life. After all, life doesn't have any meaning without tests, no?

Whenever you are feeling down, just know that Allah is only a prayer away. Pray as much as you can to Him, for sure He will help to ease your pain. Allah would not test His servants more than what one can handle. So don't worry, keep your heads up. Allah is right by our side. Keep on praying, He always listens. It will all be better by tomorrow. Allah has promised that every cloud has a silver lining. After a hurricane, comes a rainbow. 

He is the owner of every heart, so He knows how to mend it. He knows how to heal a heart. By praying and reciting the Quran, your heart will become calmer and you will be in peace. Pray to Him so that you would not get drowned by your sadness and your pain. Pray so that you will always remember Him. Pray so that He is the only One you will rely on. There's no power except His that can keep your hearts at ease. There's no blessing except from Him that can make you feel secured. 

We would feel happier when we live our life out of the norm. Step out of the comfort zone, and live a life in modesty. Because sometimes, our normal life is not exactly what has been blessed by Allah. All we have to do is to make a change.

It's ok to be down. It's ok to be sad. It's ok to fall. But don't stay on the ground, you gotta get up and ask for strength from the One up there. Once you're hurt, pray more to Allah to protect your heart so that you won't feel the same twice. 

Wallahu'alam

Moments

Assalamualaikum!

Since I didn't post any pictures for my previous post, so here are some of them 

Met these two girls of mine last Friday. They were in Kajang for christmas holiday. 

But now Shera has gone back to Kedah and Erin is already in Shah Alam. 

It was a short meet up and I miss them already. 

Went to Putrajaya on NYE, and we snapped some pictures by the Putrajaya lake. 

Went to Wangsa Maju on Wednesday aaaaand I met this little boy.

He is my cousin's son and my nephew.

Today, he is exactly 2 months young. He is such a cutie and all he did was sleeping haha.

Welcome to S & S family, Muhammad Jebat Rizqy. Be a good boy aite! 

So that's pretty much my activities for the past few days. I have to get my things ready as I'm going back to Kuantan on Sunday (the day after tomorrow). I've done 80% of the packing and I hope there's not much left to be done. 

Till then, have a great Friday and may Allah bless xx

Rewind

Assalamualaikum & happy thursday guys!

I've been a lil bit busy for the past couple days, going to places and such. So let's have a bit of a recap.

Last Friday, I met my long lost girlfriends, Erin and Shera. We talked and laughed like cray and I swear I miss them loads. We shared a lot of stories with each other and it feels just like before, when we were still in high school. Perangai tak ubah dr dulu smpai skrng sama je haha. I wish that Anis, Iman and Hudda were there too though.

On Saturday, I don't remember going anywhere. I think we were just chilling at home watching movies and do stuffs at home.

On Sunday, we attended a wedding at Ampang. It was mama's old mate's son's wedding. The food was delic, BUT the venue was not so conducive. I mean the view was so breathtaking, because the wedding was held in a hall overlooking the lake, but the hall was too crowded with people and there was not enough tables for the guests. We had to wait for 10 minutes until we got the seat. There's so many things need to be improved lols jk.

On Tuesday night, the NYE, my family and I went to an arabian restaurant in Putrajaya for tahlil and doa selamat in conjunction with the opening of the restaurant. That restaurant is actually a join venture of two Yemen guys and my father's friend. My father helped them constructed and decorated the restaurant so thats why we were invited for the opening ceremony. The view was so beautiful, I swear it is to die for! It is overlooking the cruise tasik in Putrajaya and we could see there's a cruise ship that night. And the food was so delicious Masha Allah. The best part is we can dine in whenever we want to for free, just because my father has helped them in the construction of the restaurant. Alhamdulillah.

Yesterday, I went to my aunt's house for birthday celebration and new year get together. Almost every year, we would gather at Wangsa Maju, my late grandma's house to celebrate new year with a lot and lots of food and gifts. I am beyond thankful that I have a family with a very very strong bond. Tak sempat nk rindu pun, sbb selalu sangat jumpa. I am so close with my cousins we just feel like sisters and brothers. We talked about this year's activities and stuffs since 2 more babies are coming out this year, I can't wait! I just love babies so much.

So today is the first day of school for 2104. I woke up this morning seeing my sisters getting themselves ready for school, suddenly it came to me that I miss school years so so much. Everything was perfect back then, less stress and less drama.We were all too young to be involved with problems and drama. But what can we do, everyone has to move forward with life and grow up as time goes by.

Anyways, I guess it's still not too late for me to wish everyone a very happy new year 2014. May this year brings a lot of happiness and more blessings from the One up there. Come what may, memories will stay. Stay true to the ones you love and keep up your faith in Allah.

Till then, may Allah bless xx