A bookworm, I am

Assalamualaikum!

It's Friday all over again today, and it's the last Friday of the month. June is coming on the day after tomorrow. W-wow! That's quick ayyy.

Anyways, I am becoming a book worm ever since I left Uitm after my foundation. I keep reading novels, one after the other. And I'm currently on the 3rd or 4th book I'm not really sure. Reading is fun, because it's a learning process for you to gain extra knowledge about grammar stuffs and whatnot, plus you can improve your vocabulary. But it has to be in English ok! Haha. So I'm currently reading a novel by Sharon Owens titled The Ballroom in Magnolia Street. The intro is a bit poor I must tell, but I hope it gets better when I reach the middle part or the climax of it. 

I haven't got the proper time to be doing the book tour for my whole book collections. I'm sorry to whoever that asked for it, but I'll try to find some time ok I'll try. It's gonna take me a lot of time to do the book tour, but In Sha Allah when I have a suitable time to do it, I will. 

I cancelled my trip to Kuantan because 1. I have no company to go with me 2. I'm broke right now I need money so badly! 3. I have a kenduri tahlil & sambut puasa which at first falls on the 8th but is forwarded to this Sunday. And lastly, I just got to know from my friends that there will be no introduction/audition for the clubs to the juniors in Kuantan, so it's pointless for me to spend money on the bus ticket for nothing, no? The reason I wanna be there, is to join my debate captain & vice captain to hold the audition for the new batch this year. I guess the audition will be held on other weekends, by the lecturers or by the seniors. I'm not sure. So no Kuantan trip. I'm sad because I miss my campus so badly. *wipe tears*

Till then, xx

New York Valentine by Carmen Reid (Review)

Title : New York Valentine

Author : Carmen Reid

Publisher : Corgi edition

Num. of Pages : 412

Personal shopper Annie Valentine has a dream job in the heart of fabulous Manhattan.

Daughter Lana is lost in the heat of first love, but has she fallen for a heart-breaker?

In London, husband Ed faces a scandal at work and knows, in his heart, he needs Annie back. 

What's a girl to do when her true love is in London but her new love is New York?

My thoughts ;

Annie Valentine is a supermum who works as a TV presenter in her own show, "How Not To Shop", is basically a very family-oriented kind of woman. She has 4 children, two with her ex-husband, whom she had lost in a car accident (I don't really remember), Roddy Valentine, and the other two with her new husband, Ed Leon. She always puts her family first in every situation in her life, but got stuck in the middle for her young and grown-up daughter, Lana. Ever since she's done with schools, she gets distracted and doesn't really know what to do next. She has a very low self-esteem and all she does is sit in her room, lay on the bed, all day errday. Annie, who is very concerned about her daughter, wants Lana to work with her as her assistant in her show. She thought it might help Lana to gain her self confidence back. Somehow, the show was suddenly being de-commisssioned by Channel Four, the channel on which her show was being screened. Annie has lost her job in a blink and turned herself into a depressed domestic housewife. She tried to phone her TV manager, her agent, just to get her job back, but to no avail. 

Just before her show got de-commissioned and withdrawn from the channel, she received a phone call from a good friend of hers, Svetlana Wisneski. She had asked Annie to help her daughter with her fashion line and dress business in New York. Annie turned down her request because she loves her job so much, and it's been her dreams to be on TV. After the show was being cancelled, she thought it would be a good idea to go over to New York, to help Elena, Svetlana's daughter with her dress business, Perfect Dress. And she thought it might be great if she could bring Lana with her, so that she can explore the other side of the Atlantic and see the world. Once she got Ed's permission, without second thoughts, she flew to New York with Lana. She fell in love with NYC instantly as she touched down in JFK. She could actually see herself moving into the city and be one of the New Yorkers. But her aim in NYC is to help Elena with her business. They both stayed in NYC for four weeks to settle some problems with the dresses. On the third week in NYC, something had happened with Ed in London. Ed had been suspended from the school he was teaching in that urged Annie to go back home and be with her husband. She left Lana with Elena to settle some things before she could go back to London.

In London, she's always been missing NYC. She dreams of going back there and settle down with her family. She has a new love for New York apart from her true love, in London. 

I give it a 3.5 star.

Update

Assalamualaikum!

I feel really bad for abandoning my blog for quite a long time. I reaaaaallyyyyy miss my blog so much and I wanted to post, it's just that I've been quite busy with things going on and I lost the internet connection for couple days. Anyways, I'm back!!!! So thrilled to be able to write again. Kahkah.

Last Saturday, I went to Uitm Shah Alam, the main campus of Uitm for my LLB (law degree) interview. It was fine. My turn number was 22, and they called us by three persons at once. And so I got in with the other two Shah Alam kids, and they were both very good. They asked questions about basic current issues that are related with law. There were no questions regarding our syllabus, because they have to be fair to Matrics students who came for the interview. Over all, it was just fine and not as bad as I thought it would be. Straight after my interview, we went back back home to fetch papa and kakak and headed back to hometown. It was grandma's tahlil of 100 days of her passing. Already. Time flies just too fast, I guess. Reached kampung at about 4 p.m, but when we got there, the tahlil was over so we couldn't join the tahlil. So we had lunch, and spent some time there before we went home at 10 p.m. 

On Sunday, we just stayed home and at night, we watched the badminton match in Thomas Cup. It was reaaallyyy frustrating that Malaysia was so close to winning the game. Too bad, the luck was not on our side, instead, it was on Japan's. Next time ok, there's always a next time. There's a reason why I don't like sports or watching sports' games, because when the team which I support loses, it's hard for me to get over and really move on from it. Tbh, I actually haven't moved on from last week's game in Thomas Cup. Not yet. I'm not a person who will sit in front of the television and watch a game until it ends, but when I do, hah ni lah jadinya. Tak boleh terima hakikat. 

It's already end of May now, and June is coming. Come faster, my favourite month of the year. He he he..

Till then, xx

Trip to Kuantan

Assalamualaikum!

The result for UPU application is out last week if I'm not mistaken, so I'm sure my juniors are freaking out to get into colleges and Universities which they have been accepted into. Regardless of the courses and Universities you are in, remember that Allah gives you something for a reason, and take away something from you for a reason.

"God only gives you the things you can handle"

After the UPU application result was out, many of our juniors who got accepted into Uitm Kuantan for foundation in law/tesl have joined our group which is Uitm Kuantan senior/junior 2013/2104/2015. The group is on fb, and we also have a group on twitter but I don't remember the name. So I tweeted something about my feelings when I left Uitm Kuantan last month, I got so emotional because we don't know when we're gonna step foot into that building/place again. And this guy replied my tweet asking me about law foundation and stuffs regarding it at 2 a.m. Hahaha. It's the first time of us being a senior in higher education and we got so excited when we see a good response from the juniors. We hope the infos that we've provided in the group will help them to decide. 

Furthermore, the new batch will register in early June, and they will have to go through a week of orientation in Uitm Jengka just like we did last year. After that, they will be sent to Uitm Kuantan by bus. I want to join my friends who will be the Orientation Committee (OC) in Kuantan. I'm still not sure of the date when they will be in Kuantan but I'll have to get my friends to go with me because I need some company hehehe. 

My next step

Assalamualaikum!

Alhamdulillah that I finally brought myself to typing this post. Well I wanted to blog actually, but I'm too lazy to type. I wanted to read, but I'm lazy. I wanted to study for my interview, but I'm lazy. So kesimpulannya, I'm too lazy to do anything productive. Bad amy... 

So on Monday, I went out with Su and Kina to spend some time since Su is here in KL. She is staying at her bro's place for a week. She is bored doing nothing at home, so she came here. At least she can hang out with friends and spend time with her nieces and nephews. Ok back to the story. We met at Klcc because it seems to be the centre point between our place and Su's bro's place. Heh what am I talking about? Wtv. At first, we wanted to go to Aquaria since Su and Kina have never been there, but the ticket is quite expensive, hence it's a no. We walked back to Suria Klcc then we decided to watch a movie. Su suggested Bad Neighbours because the actors are Zac Efron and Dave Franco, the two hot guys haha, but I really want to watch Rio 2. It's okay, klau ada rezeki nnti tgk Rio 2 pula. We bought the tickets for 2.20 p.m show and walked around klcc for a while, then at 2. 20 we got into the cinema. The movie is hilarious ok! BUT it is so uncensored how can people stand it I have no idea. I literally screamed when the uncensored parts were screened. No joke. When we got out of the cinema, my friends were like "habislah amy dah rosak" hahahaha. No wonder the lady at the ticket counter kept asking us if we're above 18. Once we showed her our kad siswa, she laughed and said "ok". No wonder. After the movie, we took pictures and went to eat Subway near the lrt station and went home. It was a fun day-out with them. How I wish Hana was there, too.

Anyways, my result has already been announced last week. So those who got band 4 for muet and achieved cgpa 3.0 and above are eligible for LLB interview. Apparently, the interview is gonna held next week at Uitm Shah Alam, the main campus. But we have to wait for the call letter which will be sent to our houses. And we will receive the letter by this Friday. I still haven't gotten the letter up till today and I'm still waiting. I'm quite nervous for this interview, tbh. Mind you, this is the first time Uitm is having an interview for degree in law. Idk why they are doing it now though. I'm nervous and I'm worried I would stutter during the interview. I should be studying right now, but Idk what to study also. Idk what to wear, what to prepare and what to bring for the interview. Screw you, interview. Haih

Till then, xx

Cocktails for Three by Madeleine Wickham (Review)

Title : Cocktails for Three

Author : Madeleine Wickham

Publisher : Black Swan 

Num. of Pages : 304

Three great friends, smart and successful, meet for cocktails and gossip once a month.

Roxanne : glamorous, self-confident, with a secret lover - will he ever leave his wife and marry her?

Maggie : capable and high-achieving - will she take motherhood in her stride?

Candice : honest, decent, or so she believes - how will she cope when a ghost from her past turns up?

Then one night a conversation with a cocktail waitress sets in train an extraordinary chain of events which will affect all three women's lives. Will their friendship survive?

My opinion :

Roxanne Miller : She is very confident. As a woman, she is so powerful with her edgy style and a fabulous kind of look. She is one regular free lancer at The Londoner, an editing company which both her best friends work at. She has a secret love with the boss at the editorial company but she keeps it secret, even her best friends have no idea about it. 

She is carefree, but has so much passion for the ones she loves, especially her significant other. Despite the furious and edgy looks she puts on, she cares about her friends so much. She would do anything to help and comfort her two friends, if they got into trouble. But after one conversation between her and her lover, her life started to change. She becomes someone so depressed, she shuts everyone down and brings herself away to France. And to her surprise, something terrible had happened in London. 

Maggie Phillips : A high-achiever who becomes the asset of the company where she works at, which is The Londoner. She is so passionate about her work and loves it so much that the thought of motherhood sickens her. The thought of her having to sit at home, being a mother and rocking a baby scares her. She is scared that she won't be able to take care of her baby. She is scared she won't be a good mum. 

After her baby girl was born, her life changes 360 degrees. She has to sit at home, at her big house which her husband had bought for them in The Pines, miles away from London. She feels as though she's being excluded from her best friends, excluded from everything at the office. She has no company at The Pines rather than her mother-in-law, Paddy, who doesn't seem to be on the same page with her. She feels disturbed by the presence of Paddy because she feels Paddy would criticize everything she does when it comes to taking care of her baby. Later, one evening during their meet up at The Manhattan Bar, something awful has happened that turned her life upside down. 

Candice Brewin : A decent, sensible and trustworthy kind of girl. She is the sweetest and probably the kindest among the three of them. She works as one of the editorial assistants at The Londoner, and loves her job. One night during their gossip session at The Manhattan Bar, a waitress who took their order happened to be her old friend, back in high school. Heather Trelawney, a sweet girl with an innocent look in her eyes, was a girl whose dreams and hopes were crushed because of Candice's late father's horrible act. Candice's father had deceived and led people on with his words throughout his life, including Frank Trelawney. He had deceived their money until they became impoverished. 

Later, Candice, who wanted to make amend of her father's deeds, had gotten Heather a position at The Londoner as a journalist and also had invited her to stay at her apartment for free. Little did she knew, Heather was only using her just to seek revenge of what her father had done to her family. At first, it was going well between her and Heather. But Heather, the shady girl went behind her back complaining things to their boss about Candice's false expenses and claims. Maggie and Roxanne had warned her to not believe the girl easily, but Candice, who feels so guilty about what happened in the past didn't care about her friends' advice. To her surprise, Heather did something so horrible to her that she got suspended from her job. 

A book full of moral values and lessons about family, relationship and friendship. We don't need to see our friends every day to be close with them. The people who we remember by heart, and whom we would turn up to when things go wrong, that's true friendship.

I give it a 3 and a half star.

Up next - New York Valentine by Carmen Reid.

Simple message

Assalamualaikum!

Ever since I decided to change and cover myself up 3 years ago, I wasn't sure that I'm gonna do it permanently. I was afraid that I'm gonna end up being the one I was before. And since then, I kept having dreams that I went out to malls or restaurants hijabless. Once I woke up from that dreams, I was having teary eyes and my heart was pounding and I thanked God it was ONLY a dream. It was not once, but countless of times. Then, I started to think that Allah is actually giving me a message. With my own instinct, I tried to figure out what the message was. After that, I kept having the same kind of dreams that I went out of the house hijabless. 

Suddenly it hit me.

It hit me that Allah wants me to always remember and be aware of what I wear when I go out. That means Allah wants me to wear hijab wherever I go, and do not ever go back to the state I was in before. I am so very thankful, that with those dreams I was having, I always be reminded every time I wanna go out. I will always have a reminder, which is my own self. I'd admit that I am never a good person to begin with. I was so carefree before, I didn't care about anything as long as I get what I want. I'm ashamed to tell other people who I was before. Only my family members and my close friends know how I was like. Now, even hearing people talking about my past, I'd quickly change the topic because I hate who I was before. I don't wanna reminisce the times I had been ignorant. It's too embarrassing. Really. 

Now, with this little knowledge I know, I wanna share to every one who reads this, that this is one of the things that I NEED to do for myself. I'm not trying to be selfish and stuck up and only think about me. But sometimes you gotta be self-ish for your own good, that's what people say. It has been narrated by the prophet PBUH that 

” Whoever covers up the fault of a Muslim, Allah will cover up his fault(s) on the Day of Resurrection, and whoever exposes the fault of a Muslim, Allah will expose his faults.” [Ibn Maajah] 

So I am taking a step forward to cover up the faults and sins of my brothers and sisters in Islam, especially their aurah so that Allah will cover mine on the day of Resurrection. I know it's not an easy thing to do. It has its own challenges. Kadang kadang bila kita hang out with friends, we want to share those pictures that we took together so badly on social media. But now, I've trained myself not to. I've even deleted the old pictures on my Instagram and other social media, because I wanna cover their 'aib in front of every one. I, too have friends who are not a hijabi. And Allah does not stop us from being friends with them, but we have to pray for them so that Allah would open up their hearts and they will cover their aurah as soon as possible. Nowadays we can see so many deaths all around us, and it hit me how life is short. So I hope those who aren't covering their aurah just yet, would do so before their deaths. 

Another thing, if we wish to see them change for better, we gotta motivate ourselves to not post anything about them on social media. For example, if they post a pic of them wearing conspicuous clothing and hijabless, we don't go all the way commenting "wow you're so beautiful" or "eh gorgeousnya you!". No it just doesn't work that way. It's not me being jealous or what ok, but it's a way to change them. If people do that, they would feel very confident and comfortable wearing that kind of clothes and would do that again so that people post comments and remarks complimenting them. I've stopped doing that though, even to my best friends. Because why? Because I wanna change them. If everyone stops doing that, they would feel intimidated and insecure and they would think "what's wrong with my style?" "why aren't people complimenting me like before?" and whatsoever. So they would have something to ponder upon, and that In Sha Allah can change them for the better.

So itu je nak share mlm ni. I would call it a night message, before I go to sleep. I ain't strong. But I'm trying to be strong for my own sake, as well as the others. 

Till then, good night! xx

Result day

Assalamualaikum!

It's 9th May today and it's obviously the day my final result came out. Last night at 12 a.m, my friends were impatiently starting to refresh their inbox of their emails. Whilst me, just laying on the bed, scrolling twitter timeline and reblogging on tumblr. Truth be told, tumblr has helped me to ease my nervousness. While I was reblogging and scrolling twitter, I realised it's already half past twelve, and some of my friends have already gotten their emails. 

When it was 1 a.m, I purposely checked my email and refreshed the inbox and suddenly "eh eh eh, email dah masuk la!!!" I didn't notice that I've gotten the email since it didn't show any notification. With a pounding heart, I opened the mail with my eyes closed hahaha and saw my result. Alhamdulillah, the result that I got reached my target. I would love to have better pointer, but heck, I should be thankful as there are many others would die to have my result. It's not so good, but I'm happy with it. I'm satisfied that my effort for 5 months has paid off. This is what I really want since I was fourteen years old. 

So overall, I got 5As and 3Bs. My pointer for the second sem (GPA) is 3.57, and my overall pointer for both sems (CGPA) is 3.32. Alhamdulillah, I'm glad and I'm happy. I didn't expect to get that kind of result though. I only told my mum about it this morning because I didn't wanna wake her up at 1 in the morning, and she's happy! I'm beyond thankful that I can at least put a smile on her face because I know she's been going through a lot of things. A heck lot. 

Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, I feel contented.

Crap

Assalamualaikum everyone!

Hope everybody is in the pink and having a great day. I'm bored at home, with the same old routines everyday ever since I got back from Kuantan a month ago. So what do I miss? I rarely go online now. I just tweet and go on my tumblr via mobile. Too lazy to turn on the computer. Haha.

Anyway, since I did a book review on the books that I bought last week, there's an anon on ask.fm asked me to do the reviews for all the books that I own. I kinda wanna do that, but it's gonna be time consuming. You know what I mean? There are many books and I have to do the review one by one. And some of them I've forgotten what the story is about. Sorry :/ If Allah wills it, I will do it someday. Sabar ok anon? :D

I mentioned the other day that I wanted to go to PWTC book fair last Friday. So I went there with Hana and Kina. We took ktm from Kajang to Putra then we walked to PWTC. It's not that far, just a couple hundred metres. Hana bought a lot of new Malay novels as she is a Malay novels addict, whilst I just bought a novel by Nadia Khan titled Kelabu. But that's for Tya, so that means I bought nothing for myself. Hana was the only one who got so excited to walk from booth to booth for novels. 

Once we were done at PWTC, we took the ktm to Kl Sentral to have lunch at The Chicken Rice Shop. We talked and laughed like no tomorrow during lunch. After all, it's good to see them after so long. I miss them already. 

Till then, xx

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