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Assalamualaikum!

Ever since I decided to change and cover myself up 3 years ago, I wasn't sure that I'm gonna do it permanently. I was afraid that I'm gonna end up being the one I was before. And since then, I kept having dreams that I went out to malls or restaurants hijabless. Once I woke up from that dreams, I was having teary eyes and my heart was pounding and I thanked God it was ONLY a dream. It was not once, but countless of times. Then, I started to think that Allah is actually giving me a message. With my own instinct, I tried to figure out what the message was. After that, I kept having the same kind of dreams that I went out of the house hijabless. 

Suddenly it hit me.

It hit me that Allah wants me to always remember and be aware of what I wear when I go out. That means Allah wants me to wear hijab wherever I go, and do not ever go back to the state I was in before. I am so very thankful, that with those dreams I was having, I always be reminded every time I wanna go out. I will always have a reminder, which is my own self. I'd admit that I am never a good person to begin with. I was so carefree before, I didn't care about anything as long as I get what I want. I'm ashamed to tell other people who I was before. Only my family members and my close friends know how I was like. Now, even hearing people talking about my past, I'd quickly change the topic because I hate who I was before. I don't wanna reminisce the times I had been ignorant. It's too embarrassing. Really. 

Now, with this little knowledge I know, I wanna share to every one who reads this, that this is one of the things that I NEED to do for myself. I'm not trying to be selfish and stuck up and only think about me. But sometimes you gotta be self-ish for your own good, that's what people say. It has been narrated by the prophet PBUH that 

” Whoever covers up the fault of a Muslim, Allah will cover up his fault(s) on the Day of Resurrection, and whoever exposes the fault of a Muslim, Allah will expose his faults.” [Ibn Maajah] 

So I am taking a step forward to cover up the faults and sins of my brothers and sisters in Islam, especially their aurah so that Allah will cover mine on the day of Resurrection. I know it's not an easy thing to do. It has its own challenges. Kadang kadang bila kita hang out with friends, we want to share those pictures that we took together so badly on social media. But now, I've trained myself not to. I've even deleted the old pictures on my Instagram and other social media, because I wanna cover their 'aib in front of every one. I, too have friends who are not a hijabi. And Allah does not stop us from being friends with them, but we have to pray for them so that Allah would open up their hearts and they will cover their aurah as soon as possible. Nowadays we can see so many deaths all around us, and it hit me how life is short. So I hope those who aren't covering their aurah just yet, would do so before their deaths. 

Another thing, if we wish to see them change for better, we gotta motivate ourselves to not post anything about them on social media. For example, if they post a pic of them wearing conspicuous clothing and hijabless, we don't go all the way commenting "wow you're so beautiful" or "eh gorgeousnya you!". No it just doesn't work that way. It's not me being jealous or what ok, but it's a way to change them. If people do that, they would feel very confident and comfortable wearing that kind of clothes and would do that again so that people post comments and remarks complimenting them. I've stopped doing that though, even to my best friends. Because why? Because I wanna change them. If everyone stops doing that, they would feel intimidated and insecure and they would think "what's wrong with my style?" "why aren't people complimenting me like before?" and whatsoever. So they would have something to ponder upon, and that In Sha Allah can change them for the better.

So itu je nak share mlm ni. I would call it a night message, before I go to sleep. I ain't strong. But I'm trying to be strong for my own sake, as well as the others. 

Till then, good night! xx