Physically and emotionally unstable

Assalamualaikum!

I've been sick for the past few days. Last week, I had a mild conjunctivitis and the doctor said it was an early stage of virus attack. At first, my right eye hurt and was constantly watery. So I went to the clinic and got an eyedrop. The next day, I had a severe pain at the back of my right ear. It hurt so bad. And it got swollen the next morning. So Hana forced me to see the doctor, again, to know what's wrong with me. That means I went to the doctor for two consecutive days. Due to those sickness, I've been experiencing a massive headache, especially on the right side of my head, even now. I have no idea what is going on with my antibody, it seems to get weaker and weaker everytime I have a disease. So my body's resistance towards those diseases is very low. 

Too bad. 

These days, I've been having an emotional breakdown due to what I'm going through right now. I already have so much in my plate, and having these kind of defects is really taking a toll on my emotion. I become someone passive and silent. I got to admit that I feel so content when I'm with my housemates because they make me happy, they make me feel alive. But when I'm all alone, I tend to think about it over and over. If you think that I purposely burden myself with all these things, then you're wrong. You're so wrong. Everytime it comes across my head, it struck my heart and it hurts. It hurts every single time. I swear. I am so tired of every single thing. Because everything hurts. I need my mom. I need my sisters. I need to get out of here. I need to get home. Pronto.